COMA

Wedding Plans

- Nanon Korapat Kirdpan, Will you Marry Me? –

Nanon just stood there, speechless and motionless, as if someone just asked him to kill his mother in front of everybody. He was shocked and stunned. With everything that was going on in less than 12 hours, him almost losing the love of his life, him almost committing suicide, the shock of understanding and processing the fact of losing Ohm forever and him just witnessing a miracle – Ohm coming back from the dead to be with him – it was all too much for Nanon to swallow.
Everyone else, including Ohm, slowly began to feel more and more anxious at Nanon's silence. Ohm took another piece of Paper, writing the following:

-Babe, are you okay? Did you read what I just asked you? –

Nanon read the lines and looked back at him, nodding.

Ohm wrote again:

-So...what is your answer? –

Ohm held the piece of Paper up again, smiling but it was clear to see that his confidence had left him. Sweat was forming on his forehead, and he was shaky, trying to hold the piece of paper up, without indicating that he was indeed terrified now. After what felt like an eternity of silence, he decided to write something again.

-Non...Babe, if you need more time to think...-

"No!", Ohm wasn't able to hold up his last piece of paper, when he heard Nanon saying the worst Thing he could have imagined him saying. Ohm looked at him in disbelieve. Everyone else was shocked, too. Nonnie now, slowly moving to her brother.

"Non...is everything okay? You don't have to dec...-"
"I said No!.."
"NO?" Everyone repeated what Nanon said, synchronized, looking at Nanon as if he just bumped his head hard. Nanon was now slowly moving towards Ohm, who narrowed his head, looking heart broken.
"No...No...No...not again. You don't get to do that Pawat! Not again.", Ohm was now looking at him confused.
"You don't get to fall into a Coma, leave me heartbroken, preparing a death-package for me, not telling me that you made me your legal proxy, get me to have a seizure, multiple break downs, sleep deprivation, depression, suicide attempts, come back to me when it is convenient for you – only to make me a marriage proposal – NO!", Ohm opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out. He felt so helpless. He didn't think of the possibly that this, after everything Nanon had to go through, could be too much for him. He just thought of his selfish ass once again – as the marriage proposal was his plan all along. That was why he went out with Kaow to get that special diamond ring for his beloved Nanon and that was why he had that accident on that faithful night, when he and Nanon had a misunderstanding. He wanted to show him the ring...and propose to him right after.
Nanon was now crying again, holding on to both of Ohm's Hands.

"Ohm...I want you to listen to me and I want everyone to hear what I am about to say to this man, sitting right in front of me", he turned to everyone who was in that room with him at this particular moment, and smiled at them, turning back to Ohm, holding up his Hands, kissing the back of both of them softly.
"I can't believe you are here...I can't believe that I am kissing your Hands and feeling the warmth of them, blood flowing through your veins, your cheeks blushing a pinkish red, you...just smiling at me with that smile of yours, which I adore. You don't know how much I have missed you. You don't know what I went through...not knowing if you would ever wake up, not knowing if I get to ever kiss you again, touch you...talk to you, hug you...I can not tell you how I feel. I wish I could, but I doubt that there are enough or appropriate words for my feelings for you right now.
You have always been the one to show me that...", Nanon sniffed, kissing the back of Ohm's Hand again," ...that I am enough...an-and that I am worth, being loved and cherished. You were the only one who knew all of me and still loved me for it...every time we fought, you loved me more, you understood me and even explained to me why I was acting the way I was acting. You never judged me, You never left me, even though there were times, I even asked myself why you are still with me. All you did was shower me with love and understanding. It was new to me and I was terrified. This – You – Us – it was too good to be true and that's why I didn't trust myself and I didn't trust this, I mean...our relationship. That's why I acted up, every time something became too suspicious for me, but all you did was having patience and understanding for me.", Ohm held Nanon's Hands tight, as the tears were now also streaming down his face, "I love you. And I know I loved you way more than you loved me. I loved you for a long time, Ohm. I just didn't realize that it was love. And when I finally did, it scared me. You and Chimon, you guys know what I went through, and I didn't want to go through that again. I was so afraid. I was really really afraid, because with you Ohm...my emotions for you were different. I felt so intertwined, so close, so immerged with you, that I felt like, you leaving me would be like someone cutting one of my legs or arms off. I would never be whole again. What I am feeling for you runs so deep, that sometimes I wonder if we can even survive without each other.
Now I know that, I can not exist without you in this world, without the possibility of ever seeing you again. I just can't. It is not possible. I love you more than anything in this world ", Nanon gave Nonnie, his mother and father an apologetic look, indicating that he loved them too, but the emotion he felt for Ohm, was not of this planet, „and I always will. You are my best friend, my best partner, the love of my Life and my soulmate...I love you so damn much Ohm", Nanon looked Ohm in the eyes and shook his head in disbelieve. He felt the overwhelming emotion of Love rushing through his body, his being, his soul, overfloating him with butterflies all over. He couldn't describe the feeling. He had never loved someone as endlessly and deeply as he had loved Ohm and it didn't terrify him anymore as he now knew, that Ohm felt the same way about him.
Ohm was crying now, squeezing the hand of Nanon, pulling him closer for a kiss but Nanon stopped him.
"I was never able to tell you how much you mean to me. Let me now make it clear for everyone in this room and around the world.