COMA

Until We See Each Other Again... - GoodBye!"

"Aaah, shiaaaa! My head.."
"OH?! Look who has decided to grace us with his presence...did you u have a good sleep?"
"What the...Jimmy? What are you doing here?...Where the fuck am I?"
"I call it the Place, that saved your "to-be-marriage" Hm? How about that?"
"Hmm? Fuck I cant remember anything...the last thing I know is that..Neo? Where is Neo?"
"This Guy loves you to death you know that right? You better not lose him...he brought you here....now he is getting all of us some food and water to drink"
"OH? That is..indeed very nice of him.."
"Well...now that you have returned from your beauty sleep, I can finally do, what I have been meaning to do this whole time..."
"What did you.."
'SMACK'
"AUUUUU...SHIAAA WHAT THE FUCK JIMMY??!?"
"This ...is for emotionally wrecking and killing Nanon...and this.."
'SMACK' 'SMACK'
"FUCK JIMMY CAN YOU STOP SMACKING ME?"
".... was for still not learning from your dumb mistakes...Are you actively trying to give Nanon a heart attack or do you just love being annoying and stupid?"
"OK...hold on...You have been smacking me and insulting me ever since I woke up..Can you at least explain how I got here?"
"OOOOH I think you perfectly know, why you are in the state you are in right now....", Jimmy gave Ohm a disappointed glance and starred at him intensively. Ohm returned the glance, confused.
"Oh, come on...don't give me that "I don't know what you are talking about"-look! How long have you been taking them?"
"Taking what?"
"The fucking pills, man! Do you think I am stupid? Overly opened pupils, dry skin, pale face..."
"OK,OK...I have been taking them for 2 weeks now"
"TWO WEEKS!?!?"
"Yeah...and nothing happened so far", Jimmy glared at him angrily.
"Its no big deal....I ordered them from the Internet and I read comments about them...and they helped I mean..I can feel my legs..."
"Ohm..Fuck...I always thought you just look stupid, never thought that you actually are...", Jimmy rubbed his face with his hands, looking exhausted and tired.
"You cant just walk around, buying dangerous medicine from the market. There are rules. There is a reason why they have prescriptions from a certified doctor...I am a medical student, remember? I should know....why didn't you come to me?"
"Come to you?!", Ohm chuckled and narrowed his eyes. "What good would it have done? You would have just told me, what you are telling me now. Making my hopes and dreams disappear into thin air.... You and Nanon and the others... you guys have no idea how it feels to be disabled. To be less of a person and to be viewed by society as such..I can not be like this Jimmy...I have to walk again...I can not live like this..I have tried...it just so fucking hard to always be depended on someone.", Ohm buried his face in his hands, sniffing and sobbing silently. Jimmy felt for him and he could imagen how he felt, nevertheless, he was convinced that Ohm's doings would have caused more pain and damage, than good in the long end.
"Ohm...listen, I am not here to tell you otherwise. You are right, I don't know how it feels to be disabled. I don't know how it feels to be depended on someone, but I do know how it feels to always feel like you cant be there for the person, no matter what you do, they just don't see your concern and your help. Nanon loves you. So much. He has visited me at least 30 times in the past 3 months, trying to find something for you, some new Technic or therapy, so you can walk again. He offered to pay for all of it, fly you oversees even, putting his career behind, just to be with you. Now imagen you do all of this and all you get back is "Its not enough"...Nanon is suffering at least as much as you, even though he is not the one being in your situation. He shares every emotion with you, he sees you crying at night, when you sleep, in the morning when you pretend to shower...or in the afternoon, every time you tell him that you are out in the garden – he knows...he knows your every pain and he cant do anything about it. Nothing. He can just watch from afar, how you are hurting day in and day out. Imagen how that must feel like.", Ohm was quiet after Jimmy's comment. He never meant to hurt Nanon or to make him feel miserable, it was just that, he wished that things went back to the way things were, before he had that terrible accident.
He wished he could carry Nanon, take him out for dinner or surprise him at his work place. But all of that was impossible now, as he always needed someone to watch out for him.
"He..He told you all of that?", Jimmy nodded and came closer to the bed Ohm was laying in.
"Ohm...Nanon is suffering...he is really really hurting, because he feels like he is not enough for you"
"That's Bullshit....Nanon is everything to me and more!"
"Then show him..."
"I..I FUCK!!!", Jimmy patted his shoulders and Ohm buried his face in his hands once more, shaking and crying. Jimmy took a deep breath and took something out of his wardrobe.
"I didn't want to introduce you to this...but there might be a way for you to get what you want and for Nanon to keep you safe..."
"NO! He can never know about any of this...I mean he would just be worried...and I don't want that for him....he has already been through enough because of me"
"No..he doesn't have to know...even though I am not – I repeat – not a fan of your "behind his back" doings but well, as you wish...So...take this and read it...come back to me if you decide that you want to do it...I might be able to get you into the program."
"How long doe-"
"Just read it...I promise, all of your questions will be answered...now put it somewhere save..."
"Ok..Thanks man!"
"Don't thank me yet...just give me a call, after reading it...we can go through the details later.."
"OK"