Sins

Chapter Five

Chapter five.

My heart was pounding out of my chest. Guilt was overwhelming me. This was just too much. My mom, my dad, John,.. All the things that are happening. I went in to the guest bathroom and splashed water in my face. I couldn't help but feel as I hurt his feelings as well. I changed into my pajamas. Shorts and a big t-shirt. I decided it would be better to sort things out in the morning. It was around 7 o'clock ish. I was beat. And boy did I have a big day tomorrow. I decided to go to sleep. I got in the bed and fell into my own abyss.

DREAM: I was running, and running, hearing the breathing and the sinister laugh of somebody. They were following me. I was starting to pant, exhausted I ran around a corner, trying to catch my breath. It was deathly quiet. The pat pat of footsteps. My heart was beating rapidly, it almost felt as whoever was following me could hear it. Like they knew where I was. I peeked around the corner, and all I could see was a dark mist, making the red walls crack, making the walls bleed around me. I looked around. I continued to look at the mist. Two yellow eyes, burned through me. I ran down the hall, trying the doors. "Come on.. Open!" I was reaching the end of the hallway. I tried the last door and it clicked open. It was like I entered a different dimension. Everything changed. I was back in the apartment. "Oh, hello.. Honey." The silky sweet voice said. The blonde hair, the blue blouse, her jeans. My mother turned around and faced me. "Come eat." So carefully I went up to her. I started eating her famous roast. It was so juicy. But something wasn't right.. She wasn't right.. She was dead. My conscious screamed! And once again everything changed. Blood started forming around her neck and wrists. My eyes started watering. "It's all your fault! Alex.. You did this to me!!! Your going to HELL!!" The sweet voice changed to a deep guttural voice. "No.." I said. "You can't say that to me.." I said. "You stood there and watched your mother die.... You could of done something!" It laughed, twisting my mothers figure, her face changing to a wicked smile, and sharp teeth. "No! I couldn't move! It's not my... Fault." My voice barely above a whisper. It clicked its teeth. "Poor, poor Alex.." It's all your fault. It's all your fault. It kept echoing inside my head, it was swarming me. DREAM:end.

I jumped up from the alarm clock blaring. I hit snooze on it, and wiped the cold sweat from my head. It took me a minute to figure out where I was. I went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth. I was still half asleep, I tip toed out to John's fridge. Milk sounded really good to me. It was somewhat chilly. My legs had goose bumps on them. When I reached the fridge, I opened it quietly and got out the milk. "Achem." I jumped and turned around. John was standing against the door way, wearing plaid pajama bottoms. He had bed head, which made him look über sexy. All he was wearing was his pajama bottoms and his underwear,. I hoped. I bet I looked like I was drooling. I should be. He had abs, so sexy. "Uh.. Hi." I said blushing. He gaze looked me up and down. I just noticed my legs were bare and the only thing that he didn't see we're my chest and my underwear. He licked his lips subtly, I could tell because since I was staring at him so intently.

"Good morning, Alex" he said, his voice husky. Was this another dream.. A very hot dream? 

It was almost eating me inside. I had to know. I didn't care for the consequences. I put my cup down and went up to him, my hand going through his thick curls, I brought his head to mine. I kissed him, our lips meeting. He grabbed my hips and brought me closer, closing the gap between us. His tongue collided with mine, the body heat between us. He started to kiss my neck. I backed up, both of us panting. I stared into his eyes. Lust, desire, want. And like magnets, the positive and the negative. He walked towards me. "I want you.." He said, as his eyes went up and down my body. "Then have me". I said. He picked me up and set me on the counter, out bodies touching. He slid his hand up my shirt caressing me. I had given in to my own temptation. Hopefully this wasn't the death of me.

About an hour later, I was laying on the floor, John next to me. Both of us panting. I was covered by a wool blanket, I rolled on my stomach looking at him. "I'm sorry, Alex". I was confused. "Sorry for what?" The bottom of my stomach dropped. "I shouldn't have tooken advantage of you..." "No.. I said it was okay". Their was something else. "There is something I have to tell you..." I didn't like the sound of this.

"I really like you, Alex... But this is all so sudden..." My heart dropped. I couldn't handle this. My eyes started to water. "I need to go.." I said, heading toward the guest room. "No, wait..." I just kept walking to the room. And with sheer force, my body slammed into the wall. I closed my eyes for a second, waiting. I opened them, looking straight in the eyes of John.. His face was distorted,. And his eyes... "Your eyes..." I stared at the yellow spirals of his eyes. His eyes.. Just like my nightmare... I couldn't breathe..

Just when I thought I was safe... But I guess I was never really safe? 

I gasped. Jumping up from the bed. Was.. That a dream? Within a dream... I didn't understand, my head spinning around me. My instincts were kicking in. I couldn't trust any body.