I cant believe I missed all this. I mean, I was only gone for 3 freakin days. And I missed 2 lessons each on my 7 subjects. I love my life!
"How am I supposed to catch up on all these works and lessons?!" I was cramming. Hard.
"Give me any worksheet, I'll help you." Jane said.
"Yup, same here, toss me one."
James said, smiling at me.
If smiles could kill, I would've been dead the first time I saw him. Hell, I'm cramming here and I'm thinking about his smile. Okay. Talk about being a good student.
"Aren't you supposed to be excused from all this work since you really were at the hospital for 3 consecutive days?" Joaquin said, sitting down on our bench.
It was lunch time. And also the second week of school. I know, its impossible for all the things that's happening now, happen.
"I dont know, have you ever been hospitalized for 3 days and cram the shit out of yourself? Yeah? I dont think so!" I yelled.
So I caught the attention of most of the people in the cafeteria. Nothing new. Except all eyes are on me now.
"Yeah what are ya'll starin at?!" Chase said, sitting down on our bench.
I moved uncomfortably. Scratched my throat as a sign of discomfort and groaned loudly.
"I think Tessa and I better head to the Library, we need to finish all this work." Jane suggested.
"Okay, see ya guys later." Joaquin said.
"I uhm actually needed some homework done too, i'll see ya guys later!" James said, running from our lunch table.
It hasn't even been a day since Chase's confession of his feelings to me and what I am feeling right now isn't helping me with all these work I need to finish.
"Uhm Tessa?" James caught my attention.
"Yeah?" I said, snapping out of my thoughts.
"Uhm you've been staring at your paper for a long time and the first bell just rang, we better hurry up to make it to class." James said.
"You guys can just go ahead, I'll catch up. Or i'll meet you both after school." I smiled.
I want to be let alone okay?
"Alright, see ya later Tessie!" Jane waved goodbye.
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I missed 3 classes already. And I don't think I'll be leaving the library anytime soon. I thought that I should text my friends I wont be meeting with them anytime soon, but I cant text with a dead battery phone. Just my luck. I didnt even know what time it was, (sigh) the only time I forgot my watch.
I sat there for a while. Just thinking of what to do- should I outside to look for them? But what if I stand here they'll come looking for me too? Gah, I'll just sit here, finish my work and then look for them.
"waking up, beside you i'm a loaded gun, i cant contain this anymore, i'm all yours i got no control, no control...."
One Direction was playing on my iPod which luckily I got to update in case of emergencies ..... now.
My head was moving along with the song, it makes me look like i'm doing a fast nod, I was laughing at the thought and how people would see me. But then I heard the chair beside me move, and seeing the person's face made my smile fade.
"So this is what you do after school?" Chase said.
"Don't disturb me, I'm studying here." I snapped at him.
"Oh is that so? I'm a distraction?" He smirked.
My blood was boiling. He was the last person I wanted to see right now. I groaned loudly then sighed, then I grabbed all my books and notes, not bothering to fix them by subject, I walked out of the library. Earphones on, full blast, bye world.
However, I was still hearing Chase shouting for my name. I was pissed. Furious, actually. Why cant he just leave me alone? I had to go home. To my surprise, it was dark already. How come I never checked the time? Oh right, I was busy 'studying'. I let out another loud sigh and said "What do you want?" when Chase pulled my Right earphone.
"Why have you been avoiding me? You havent talked to me since my confession yesterday." He said.
"Maybe I don't want to see you. Or maybe I want to have some time to think, to find my stupid self. To know why I liked a stupid bastard for years." I admitted.
"So you like me?" He smiled.
"I did. And now I don't even see you as my friend. Goodbye, Chase." I frowned at him.
"Everyone deserves a second chance. I deserve a second chance."
"You had multiple chances. Each day I was with you for 6 years was a chance. And you never took it. Now you tell me, do you really deserve another chance?" I raised my eyebrow.
"I'm sorry." Chase said.
"I have to go." I said with a serious voice.
Chase grabbed my wrist and said, "I'm sorry I never took a chance, I'm sorry I'm the selfish bastard you became friends with for 6 years. And I'm sorry that I love you, even if its too late."
I didnt notice I was crying when Chase wiped my tears away. "I really have to go."
And then I wiped my tears while running to my car.
