4 days. I've been crying and laughing, and been batshit crazy, for 4 days. Its a new record! Yup, 4 whole days, and Also, 4 days since Ive not let anyone in my room, but Tami or Mom. Thank God it's spring break, because I do not want to go to school looking and feeling like this.
I hate this feeling of being left out and at the same time feeling like you should be alone. It feels like an endless nightmare.
Chase has been trying to reach me since the day I cried all afternoon. Jane's been doing the same thing too, she's also sending me voice mails every other hour, checking up on me if I need her company or someone to talk to, but I just couldn't bring myself to accept the things going on.
I'm hoping today will be a different day from the past days, so Ive been thinking about hanging with Jane and Chase this afternoon.
At that thought, Tami knocked at my door, sounding worried.
"T-Tessa? Are you okay?" Tami said. She's been doing this since the past few days, every other hour, and she even brings me food and snacks, sometimes she even offers me if I want to watch a movie with her, but being the lazy person I am, I declined her offers.
I opened the door and said, "Yeah I'm good, I'm actually thinking of hanging out with Chase and Jane later," She flinched at how I sounded and seemed surprise to my change of mood.
"I'm happy you're okay now, have fun Tessa! But can we please watch a movie or two when you get back? I really missed hanging out with you, I'm tired of talking to my stuffed animals." We both laughed.
"Sure, Tam. Sorry I wasn't such a good sister for the past days, you'll understand all this when you're older." I patted her hair like a dog.
"Okay, stop messing with my hair, get dressed and hurry 'cause you have friend to catch up with!" Tami grinned.
"Okay, Thanks, Mom." I put my tongue out.
She giggled and ran downstairs. I sighed. Sometimes I think she's older than me, or that sometimes she serves as my Mother when my real one isn't around all the time.
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"No wonder you've been glued to your room for days-- You've been exposed to him too much that you cant be on your own anymore. You need him, T."
"Yeah, thanks for rubbing it in, Chase." I sarcastically said.
Its just Chase and I in my room right now, Jane's on the way and also running late because her mother made her do some errands. Sigh. Ive explained most of what happened to Chase and I'm not sure he's picking my side. Guys will be guys.
"I'm just saying, T, Maybe this is good for you that for some time, you're on your own and not dependent on James." Chase explained.
Really, is he on my side or-?
I let out a loud sigh. "So what are you trying to say? That I need to distance myself away from him and just forget about him? Geez, Chase, you confuse me."
"I cant make up the words to say what i'm trying to tell you. And hey, I got what you said the first time you said it, okay." Chase frowned.
I didn't get it at first, but after a few seconds, I knew he was talking about what I said before when we fought. I let him know that he confuses me so much and all that, now he's hurt because I brought up such a sensitive topic.
"Well I, I, ugh." I groaned. "Can we just not talk about him, only for today, please? I'd really love to catch up with you guys. It's the start of our break and I wouldn't want to spend it in my room, thank you very much."
Chase's face lit up with happiness, covering the sadness he felt a moment ago.
He then smirked at me, then ran downstairs. "I'll be right back!"
I sighed. "Okay?"
A minute later, Chase came back with a brown paper bag, then handed it to me and said, "Here." Then smiled.
I grabbed it and opened it. "I cant take this. Its too much, Chase. I'm sorry." It was a Victoria's Secret bag. I couldn't take it, I cant find a reason for me to keep it, at least. I handed the bag back to him and he pushed the bag towards me and leaned closer.
"T, open the bag." Chase said.
And so did. And I held up a bright pink dress, it was a plain velvet dress. Ohmygod. He then got the brown paper bag.
I opened my mouth in surprise. I was speechless? It left me speechless, therefore I do not know what to do or say.
"I-I," I stuttered.
"Like it?"
I smiled, nodded and hugged Chase.
"That's not all." He smiled.
He threw the bag and dress to my bed and gave me the brown paper bag.
"Get the thing you will see at the bottom of the paper bag."
It. Was. A. Letter.
I held up a letter and let go of the paper bag. I'm so shocked I can almost faint.
"C-Chase."
"Read it, T. Please." Chase held my hand.
