Chapter 19: Just Curious

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Finnley's Pov:

I run.

I run as fast as I can.

I run as far as I can.

I run and I don't stop.

I am running through the busy New York streets, but soon I decide that I need to find a place where I can stop running so that I can finally take a moment to stop and think.

However, after running for several miles, when I finally do find an abandoned building on the outskirts of town and I go in and take a moment to stop and think, I quickly realize that was a mistake.

When I am finally alone with my thoughts and they are not overcome by the adrenaline from running, they come rushing forward and there is no hope of stopping them.

It was in self-defense.

I keep telling myself that, like I am trying to convince myself.

If I hadn't done anything, she would have killed Scarlet. She surely would have.

Although the officers clearly did not believe that it was self-defense, or at least I didn't stick around long enough to convince them.

My god- I left the kids there with them. I left the kids alone, I left Scarlet alone.

If I were to have stayed there was most likely no chance that I would ever be able to see them all again after that. Even if I were able to plead my case, the system still would have never listened. I would always be known as the kid that attacked their caretaker. I would be separated from the rest of them, probably just to be stuck in some "troubled teen home," definitely not somewhere I wanted to end up. No one wants to adopt a kid that is known for attacking their caretaker.

But it was self-defense. Right?

I tried to stop her, I really did, but that was the only way.

Was it though? Are you sure you didn't want to do it?

I didn't hit her in any extremely vital places, maybe she will survive, hopefully.

Do you really hope that? Or is that hope just to clear your conscience?

I didn't mean to hurt anyone, I didn't want to, but I had to save Scarlet. I would never let her get hurt.

But she did get hurt, they all did, and it is because of you. If you just weren't so selfish and hadn't stayed to simply watch a movie of all things when the rest of them were there alone with her, none of this would have happened.

I should have known this would happen, I was so stupid to think that nothing would.

This is all your fault.

And now, I have no idea what the future will hold. I don't know if I will ever be able to see the kids again. Would they even want to see me again? I did this to them.

This is all your fault, and you deserve everything that is coming for you.

I'm going to forever be on the run, all because I was selfish and stayed to watch a movie. I killed someone because I wanted to be a kid for once. I was irresponsible and inconsiderate and because of that, I failed everyone that I ever cared about.

This is my fault.

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Loki's Pov:

The moment that Finnley rushed through the hallway, crashed into me, and continued to speed off just as frantically as before, I instantly knew that something was wrong.

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