My Pen Bleeds

Lost

I probably know , no one is going to read it .
I can write whatever is hurting me inside .
I feel like I am useless
I don't deserve anything in life.
I can't even keep my parents happy .
No one wants to talk to me .
I feel like , my friends are too good
to be my friends. 
I wish I could just disappear. 
I want everyone to forget , if I ever existed .
I am not smart, 
I am not kind ,
I am not even beautiful. 
Everyone around me are reaching great heights .
I cannot even take a shower daily. 
I disappoint my mother every day .
I wish I was a better child .
My father , he is kind enough
Not to show me how useless I am .
I don't even fit in with people around me.
I can clearly see my dreams getting shattered. 
I can see myself getting nowhere in life .
The life I dreamed of .
And the fact that I feel nothing, 
Even hurts me more .
I am scared to face people around me .
People haunt me .
I am even more scared to hurt people .
Who care for me .
I don't deserve to be cared for .
I feel like I should be just abandoned. 
I should be killed .
I can't even crack a exam .
I can't help but I get distracted. 
All I am is a disappointment.
I wish I could just go somewhere, 
Without people and hide for ever .
Facing the world is scary  .

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Hyyy the writer here. If you guys have any opinion do share it in the comments, I would love to read it .
Thanks for reading.