Only You (Jikook)

My Adoration For You

                   Park Jimin's Pov

I harshly rub the back of my neck.

I feel anxious. I feel sick.

My head is spinning, and my stomach feels upside down.

And all just because I'm sitting right next to him.

"Hey, you okay?"

I blink a few times before looking up and into his eyes, and I bring a small smile to my face.
"I'm okay, Jungkook...thank you.."

He smiles as he nods once before looking up at the sky, and I can't bring myself to stop looking at his face.

"Sky looks nice today," He mumbles.

I hum in response.

And he looks back down at me.

And he seems as if he explores my face as he holds a thinking facial expression. A face full of thought.

"Mmm, what is it?" I nearly whisper.

I can't handle when he looks at me like this.

My hands grow sweaty and I feel my breath getting caught in my throat.

I can't breathe.

But I don't care to think much about it.

Looking into his eyes, is all I need.

Seeing him breathing slowly, helps me find my own air again.

"You're interesting," He says. "And a good friend, I'm really happy you decided to join us."

I hate myself because I can't hold back the frown forming on my face.

Don't frown. You have no right to.

He pats my head before catching up to the others.

The others who I forgot even existed.

Because once I'm next to him, nothing else matters.

When he's talking, every other sound gets canceled out.

When he's singing, no other voice exists.

When he's smiling...no one else's happiness matters more.

When he's near me...breathing suddenly isn't a thing anymore.

I feel this way.

Yet I am...a friend.

I look down and notice a single tear on my shirt, and I quickly grab my face.

Tears..tears. Since when did tears start falling..?

I quickly wipe them away and I hide my face from the others.

When he's near, nothing else seems to be acknowledged.

Jungkook, Jungkook..

What will I do, with my adoration for you?