Y/n Sturniolo <3

Too Much

tysm @theyluvvcelesteeee for the request (sorry if this isn't what you had in mind)

Ofc i was happy that Nate was back and it felt like everything that had happened while he was gone just escaped out of my memory.  That was until i looked in the mirror. God. I had gotten worse since we went to Hawaii. I guess i ate too much.  

Back to my old ways. Back to not eating. Back to hiding from people. Back to gum and water.

 I can't do this again  but i have to. When we were in Hawaii i posted a pic of me on my insta for the first time in ages and about 5 mins later i got these horrible comments. I knew who its was and i thought i blocked them but clearly they made fake accounts. 

I started to hide away again. Barely came out of my room unless it was absolutely necessary which meant not spending time with my brothers or Nate. Being forced to take up plates of food just to throw them in the bin as soon as i got the chance. It had been about a week and it was now at the point were even the smell or sight of food made me want to throw my guts up.

No one caught on which was a good thing but at the same time i kind of wanted someone to find out just to get out of it but it was too late for me to turn back. 

There was a knock at my door but i really couldn't be bothered with anyone. So i didn't answer. It was dark in my room so i saw the light come in from the hallway when someone opened the door. I didn't say anything and didn't look at the person who walked in. I felt the bed dip next to me and finally gave in and looked up to see who came in. 

"Hey, we were gonna ask you if you wanna come get food with us?" I missed spending time with the boys so i wanted to go but i stopped myself. "Thanks Nate but i'm good i literally just ate."  He looked at me confused and said "When? You haven't left your room all day and i know cuz i've been here all day!" I didn't even know he had been here which was surprising cuz they are normally so loud when Nate is over. "I'm not hungry but thanks again for asking."  I could tell by the expression on Nate's face that he wasn't taking no for an answer. "Nah you're coming with us i don't care what you say." He picked me up and almost lost balance as he probably expected me to be heavier. "Jesus christ Y/n! You're so light when was the last time you ate?" He put me back down so we were both stood up in the middle of my room. I kept my head down not wanting to answer the question. "Y/n, when was the last time you ate?" I still refused to answer as i picked at my lips. He lifted my head up os i was forced to look him in the eyes. "I'm going to ask you one more time. Y/n, when was the last time you ate?" I gave in as  didn't want to start an arguement or anything. "Since we came back from Hawaii..." I said barely above a whisper but i could tell he heard me. His eyes widened and immediately asked why i did it but i was so chocked up i couldn't even speak. Tears formed in my eyes. Nate noticed and pulled me into a hug. When we pulled away he wiped the tears from my face and he mumbled something. I wasn't quite sure what he said but all i heard was "...triplets...kill me if i don't." He started to make his way downstairs but i ran in front of him and said "Nate please don't tell the triplets i'm actually begging you!" He looked at me and said "I have to tell them, you're their little sister! They care about and they need to know now move." I just stood there not moving. I knew he was right and the triplets cared about me but that was sometimes the problem. Sometimes they cared too much. I stayed where i was a Nate just picked me up and took me downstairs with him. I tried to wriggle out of him grip and kept punching him but i was too weak to actually cause any damage. 

We got to the living room with Nate still holding me so i wouldn't make a run for it.  Matt looked up first a took a double take then asked "What's going on?" Causing Chris to look up as Nick wasn't in the room. "Nate why are you carrying our sister? And Y/n why does it look like you have been crying?" Chris questioned. Nate put me down and we looked at eachother and as soon as he opened his mouth to speak i ran but just to my luck as soon as i got to the door frame Nick walked in stopping me from leaving. Which gave Nate enough time to pick me up again and hold me still. Nick was confused and was about to ask questions when Matt shushed him cuz Nate was about to talk. I started to tear up again and put my head on Nate's shoulder so i wouldn't have to look at my brothers. "I was upstairs having a little chat with your sister and turns out she hasn't eaten anything since we came back from Hawaii." Complete silence fell across the room and i was so scared to hear what they had to say about it...