Y/n Sturniolo <3

They know

Before i start again i want to apologise for 1 being gone for so long and 2 if any of the details are wrong in this because i havent written in ages and i couldnt be bothered to read back through the whole thing anyway thank you guys so much for all your support ilysm <3

I looked back up to see everyone staring at me. I started tearing up again and Chris got up and hugged me. "Why did you do it?" his voice cracking as he spoke. I asked them to give me a minuet before i explained as i could barely form words let alone full sentences. I went to the kitchen to get a glass of water to calm myself down. I walked back to where the boys were and sat down. "Right before i start none of you speak until im done because other wise we will be here for way longer than we need to." They all nodded i agreement. "Right so it kind of started since Finn cheated on me." Chris was about to say something before Nick covered his mouth to stop him so i could carry on. "After her cheated on my he told me how much better Nikki was than me and  he made me feel really bad about my body and all that so i blocked him but then i got more messages from and unknown number saying the same thing. I also posted a picture of me in Hawaii on insta for the first time and i got a ton of hate comments. It got to the point where when ever i looked in the mirror i was completely disgusted by myself and i couldnt take it anymore so i stopped eating and started going to the gym. Thats basically it. Im really sorry i know i should have talked to you guys but you are doing so well with youtube i didnt want to throw all my problems on you." They all looked at me sympathetically. Matt was the first to speak up. "Y/n you should have talked to atleast one of us. No matter how good we are doing at youtube we will always put you first. Youre our little sister and we would rather have you safe and healthy than subscribers and followers." Nick got up and hugged me and the others soon followed. When we all let go Chris still looked angry so i gave him a look that said 'calm down, ill be ok' he smiled softly and hugged me again. I turned to Nate and hugged him. "Thank you. So much." He looked down at me confused. "Why? You got annoyed when i said i would tell them so why are you saying thank you?" I took a deep breathe and said "Cuz even though i didnt want you to, things would just get worse if you didnt. I was too far to ask for help so im kind of glad you found out."