We can win this war - a Toby McDonough Fanfiction

Chapter Twenty Seven

TOBY MCDONOUGH'S POV:
When I woke up, I looked beside me. Harper was laying beside me with her hair spread across her face.
I decided not to wake her. I moved very slowly and was careful to not walk very heavy or anything. When I closed her door and turned around, Zach was standing behind me with his arms crossed. "We need to talk." He said. His hair was a mess and he was still in his night clothes so I guessed her just woke up not too long ago.
I just nodded and walked with him down stairs.
He told me to sit on the couch so I did. He didn't look too happy for some reason. "Why were you sleeping with my little sister last night?" He said.
That's why.. "Because he wanted me to." I said. I knew lying would only make this worse. "So? If she wants you to murder someone, would you do it?!" He said, obviously getting not upset by the second. "No but-" I started but he just cut me off. "No buts!! I don't want you sleeping with her!! No matter what!" He said. I nodded. "What'd you two do last night?" He asked. "Nothing. We talked then when I started to leave she said she wanted me to stay. I started to sleep in her chair but she insisted I slept in the bed with her. We both fell asleep." I explained. "Sure." He said, getting closer to me. I stood up and he got inches away from me. "Look, she's been through a lot. He doesn't need some boy making her pregnant. And if you do.. I will hurt you in ways you didn't even think was possible. You understand?" He said. I nodded nervously. "Good. Don't sleep with her anymore." He said and he backed away and walked back up to his room.
I totally understand why he seemed so protective. But I would never do anything to hurt Harps..
I sighed and why back up to my room to change and brush my hair. After I had changed and brushed my hair, I got on my phone for a bit.
Then someone knocked on my door. "Come in." I said. The door opens and closed and I look up to see who entered my room.
Harper.
"Hey Toby... Can I.. I need to.. Would you mind if I.." She kept trying to say something and I kept looking at her. "Could I please.. Would you mind if I spoke to you for a bit..?" She asked. She looked really nervous and it made me nervous and tense.
"Of course. Come sit." I said moving over and she slowly came and sat on my bed next to me. I was leaning against the pillows but she looked like someone just told her her puppy died or something. "What's wrong?" I asked, sitting up and looking at her. "I.. I can't do this anymore." She said as her eyes started to water but she just blinked them back. "Do what? Whats wrong?" I asked, suddenly getting really nervous. She just looked at her hands for a few minutes before looking at me. Tears were falling down her face. "I can't put up with everything anymore." She said, her voice shaking from crying. "What do you mean?" I asked. "I think.." She paused. "We need to break up." She said and she started shaking and crying even harder. "What?" I asked, more quietly than I meant to. "We need to break up." She said.
I sat frozen. Piece by piece my world came crashing down. My eyes started to water by I didn't care. "No we don't.. We can't make this work. We can just delete social media if we need to.. We can make this work.." I begged as tears started to fall. She looked at me and her eyes looked terrified, lonely and sorry. I felt pain, terrified and lonely. "Please.." I begged. "I'm sorry.." She said and she got up and left my room. I wasn't exactly sure what I was feeling all I knew is I have to leave.
I wiped the tears away and walked down stairs faster than I usually do. Connor and Riley were already there and they looked at me when I just started toward the door. "Wait." Connor said. I stopped in my tracks and I wasn't sure why. I just did.
"What's wrong?" He asked. I heard him walking toward me. "Nothing." I said as I true to walk but my legs wouldn't move. "Something is. You don't just storm down here and start to leave with red eyes for no reason." He said. He was standing in front of me but I wasn't sure of anything.
Everything seemed muffled and blurry. It took me a few minutes to realize that everything was blurry from my eyes watering. "I just need to get out." I said as my voice shook and cracked in places. I reached up and dried my eyes before the tears started to fall.
"Tell me what's wrong." He said. I heard Riley get up and walk over to me. "No." I said. My only focus right now was not to cry or seems broken. "Please.." He insisted. I hesitated for a few minutes. "Me and Harper broke up." I blurted out and the tears started to fall and I couldn't stop them nor did I try. I just walked to the living room and sat down, covering my face with my hands. I heard footsteps and assumed they were Zach's.
"What's up with Harper. She's in her room crying." He said. I could feel him looking at me. "What did you do?" He asked. He sounded upset but I could sense that most of it was feeling protective over his sister. I totally understand. I looked at him, managing to keep the tears back. "I didn't do anything. She came into my room and broke up with me." I said. Before he could say anything else, I walked up to my room. After I realized what made her do it, I pulled out my phone.
I'm going to send the fans one last tweet. I used the thing where you can tweet however much you want with no limits (I don't know what it's called) and started typing.
"So I just thought I'd update you guys. Harper and I are no longer together because you guys wouldn't stop sending her hate and making everything worse. So to make sure you people don't start sending her more hate, I'm guna delete my social media and then she's guna delete hers. She was the eat thing that had ever happened to me and you guys took that away. I'm done. Goodbye." I hit tweet and then waited a few minutes before hitting delete.
I got up and walked to Harpers room. I started to knock on the door but she opened it before I could. She looked at me and then just hugged me tightly. "Harper, what-" I started but she just cut me off.
"I'm sorry." She said. She kept hugging me. "It's okay. You were doing what's best." I said, trying to calm her down.
"No. What I did just made everything worse.. I'm really sorry.." She said. "It's okay, don't worry about it." I said, trying not to cry myself. "I love you.." She said. "I love you too.." I said back. "Will you take me back?" I asked. "Yes." She said and she stopped hugging me. She looked up at me and I just leaned over and kissed her. We stood in the hall kissing. I love her so much.
I heard someone clear their throat -obviously trying to get our attention. We pulled away quickly and Zach was standing there. "That doesn't look like you two broke up to me." He said. His hair was nicer and he was out of his night clothes. "We did. But we got back together." Harper said. He just walked off.
"Let's just go in my room." He said once he was down stairs.
I smiled at her and we went in her room. We just sat there for a few minutes. Then I gently turned her face towards mine and leaned in. Our lips connected. The kiss kept getting more and more intense. I ended up laying on top of her. Just then the door opened. "Hey Char, have-" Zach said. We could feel he was standing there, staring at us. I could feel his stare move to just me and I felt like I was melting. We pulled away and slowly sat up. He was standing there, his arms crossed and he was staring at me and the look he ha on his face could kill.
"Well I guess I better-" I said as I stood up but he cut me off. "SIT" he yelled. I at back down. No one said anything for a while. "Tell me what you two were doing." He said, trying to hide he was about to explode but trying to hide it. "He was just-" Harper started but he lifted his hand motioning her to be quiet and she fell silent immediately. "I what Toby to explain it." He said. "I was just trying to get something out of her eye.." I said, trying to hide my fear. "Sure you were. And I'm dating Demi Lovato." He snapped. "You are? That's great!" I said, trying to make light of the conversation that was taking place.
"NO IM NOT." He said loudly. I could tell he was scaring Harper. "Look, just calm down.. We can talk but let Harper leave." I said. "No." He said simply.
"She didn't had anything to do with it!" I said, standing up. "Sit. Down." He said. I just sat back down. "She let you do it, didn't she?!" He said. "Yeah but-" I started but Harper cut me off. "He's right, Toby.." She said. I looked at her. Her hands were shaking as she was looking at the floor. Zach was looking at her. "I did let it happen." She said. "We need to talk." He said to her. She looked up at him and nodded. She stood up and left with him, leaving me in her room.
ZACH CUREL'S POV:
I lead Harper in my room and closed the door behind her. "Sit." I said sternly and she sat on my bed. "What were you thinking?!!!" I said loudly. I know it scares her when I raise my voice but I can't help it..
"I don't know.." She said. "YOU DONT LET A GUY DO THAT!" I yelled. "I'm sorry.." She said. I took a deep breathe trying to calm down. I don't know why I'm so upset. "What would you f done if he hurt you?" I asked, more calmly. "I don't know." She said.
"I just don't want you to get hurt." I said calmly. I finally calmed down.
"Toby wouldn't hurt me." She said. "Yes he would. He's a boy." I said. "No he wouldn't! He's different.." She insisted. "Look, I can't change what you believe.. But he would hurt you.. Trust me. That's just how guys are. They see something they want and go for it. Then they see something better and leave the first thing." I said. She didn't say anything. "I'm just trying to protect you.." I said. She nodded. "I know. But I feel like I can trust him.." She said. "I know you do.. But please don't fall only to get hurt." I said. She looked at the floor and nodded. "I understand." She said. She sounded like she was going to cry. "What's wrong?" I asked. "It's just.. I love Toby but I can't help but feel like you're right." She said. She was looking at her hands. "Maybe I am. But maybe I'm not. He really cares for you but I'm just trying to look out for you.. You should follow your heart." I said. She stood up. "That's the thing, I don't know what my heart wants. I want to stay with Toby but I also feel like I should leave him.." She said.
"Well.. You've left him before. Why?" I asked. "Because. Their fans pushed me too far and I couldn't take it anymore." She said. "What do you mean 'pushed you too far'?" I asked.
She sighed then looked at me. "I need to tell you something.." She said. I knew what it was but is knew I didn't know the full story.
"Well, you can sit down next to me and tell me everything." I smiled at her and sat down. She sat down next to me. She took a deep breathe. "Remember that time Toby brought me in and I was asleep?.." She asked. "Yeah.." I said, looking at her. "The reason I had run off was because I.." She paused as if thinking if she wanted to continue or not. "I was trying to.. I tried to.." She kept saying. "I was standing in train tracks." She finally said. "Why?" I asked. "I was waiting for the train to come.." She said. "Wouldn't you get hit by the train?" I asked, not wanting to know the answer.
"Yeah. That was the point." She said. "What are you saying?" I asked. I knew what she was saying but I wanted to hear her say it. As if hearing her say she was suicidal would make it real. Would make it easier for me to understand.
She took a deep breathe.
"I'm.. Suicidal." She said.
The word hit me hard. It made my stomach turn over and my heart hurt. "Why?" I asked through strangled breathes. "Because.. Our dad made me feel worthless and once you left.. I didn't have a reason to stay alive.." She said.
"I'm really sorry I left. I was just protecting you.." I said. She looked at me and she had tears in her eyes. "I wish dad wasn't so violent.." She said. "Me too." I said and she hugged me. I hugged her back. My eyes started to water and I just let the tears fall. I could tell she was crying and I didn't blame her.
When we were don't hugging, I noticed the scars on her wrist. "What are those?" I asked, pulled up her jacket sleeve. "You know what they are.." She said. She was right. I did know. "Have it done it recently?" I asked. I saw a few that looked like she did them a couple of hours ago but I wasn't sure. "Maybe.." She said, pulling her sleeve down. "When?" I asked. "This morning." She said. "When I had broken up with Toby.." She said. "Please never do that again.." I said. "I can't make any promises.." She said. "Just promise me.. If there's anything bothering you.. You'll come and talk with me about it.." I said. She looked at me. "Only if you promise the same thing." She said. "I promise." I said. "I promise too." She said.
"Good. Now, don't let a guy do that ever again." I said sternly. She nodded. "You can go now." I said. She started toward the door but stopped a few feet from it then turned around. "Thank you." She said. "For what?" I asked, confused a of why she was thanking me.
"For always being there for me.." She said. "No problem. That's what brothers are for, right?" I said, laughing a little. She smiled at me.
She then turned and left. I looked at the closed door for a few minutes for sighing.
HARPER CUREL'S POV:
I forced myself to walk out of my brothers room. We've always been close and I felt like just hugging him forever. Explaining everything. But I forced myself to leave. I walked back in my room where Toby was still sitting there. "Hey." He said when I walked in. "Hey." I said back and sat next to him.
I leaned my head on his shoulder.
He wrapped his arm around me and pulled me closer to him. "How'd it go?" He asked. "Okay. I think me and him got a little closer." I said. "That's good." He said and kissed the top of my head. "I love you." He said.
"I love you too." I said. My eyes started to water but I didn't care to stop the tears. I sat up. Toby just looked at me and wiped them away. "What's wrong?" He asked. "Nothing." I said. It wasn't that nothing was wrong.. I just didn't know why I was so upset.
"Something must be." He said. "To be honest.. I don't know what's wrong. I feel all broken and tired but I'm not sure why. I just feel like I'm drowning. But I'm still breathing." I said. He didn't say anything he just hugged me tightly. I hugged back but it didn't feel right. I love him more than anything but I just wanted to talk to Zach and explain everything I didn't. When we pulled away, I decided I needed to talk to Zach.
"I need to go talk to Zach.. I'm sorry." I said. He smiled at me. I smiled back and went to my brothers room. I knocked on the door, my heart in my stomach. I didn't know why, but I was nervous about explaining everything to him.
"Come in." He said. I took a deep breathe and opened the door, walked in and closed the door behind me. "Um, Zach.." I said. He looked up from his book and looked at me. "Yeah?" He asked, putting the book down. "Can I.. Speak with you for a minute?" I asked. "Sure, what's up?" He said.
"Why did you really leave?" I asked. It just came out.
"I told you. It was to protect you." He said. "Was it really?" I asked. I felt like he was lying to me. He paused. "Yeah." He said. "So you really didn't leave me..?" I asked. I could feel my eyes fill with tears and I don't know why.
"No, of course not." He said, standing up. "Promise?" I asked. "I promise." He said, walking over to me and hugging me.
I hugged him back.
I didn't know what else to say so I just left his room and went back to mine.
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AUTHORS NOTE:
Heeeey so I'm back from camp so hopefully updates will be soon xx I hope you enjoy the chapter :) <3
I THINK IM FRIENDS WITH MY CRUSH AND HE DANCED FOR ME AND OFFERED ME PUDDING AND IM SO HAPPY TBH
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