We can win this war - a Toby McDonough Fanfiction

Chapter Twenty Six

TOBY MCDONOUGH'S POV:
The video
"Hey guys.. So we just wanted to talk to you guys about something really important to us.." Toby said. "Yeah. It's about Harper." Riley said. "You guys are really upsetting and hurting her.. If you don't stop, we'll have to cancel the rest of the tour." Connor said. We all agreed. "Just please stop hurting her.. She means the world to me and I can't stand to see her hurting like this.." Toby said. "We love you all but please stop hating on her. We hope you all have a great day. Bye." Thomas said and the video ends.
I played it for the guys and we all agreed that we should post it. We hit "upload" and it started loading. I started to feel a little bit of guilt and as the green moved across the bar, indicating that it was uploading, the guilt grew. By the time a notification popped up saying the upload was complete, I felt like throwing up.
I told Harper I wouldn't do it.. And i did. What if she finds out? I can't lie and say I wasn't planning on posting it.. If she finds out, she'll hate me.. The thought makes me sit down.
"What's wrong?" Connor asked, looking at me worried. "Harper is guna hate me.." I said, looking at him. "She wont hate you.. She'll probably get upset. But she'll realize that you did the right thing and you did it to protect her.." He said, sitting next to me. "Hey Toby..!" Harper called as I heard her come down the stairs. This is the moment that she hates me... This is the day that my entire life crashes.. I can't loose her. I just can't.. She's the best thing that's ever happened to me.
"Toby, why did I just get a notification saying you guys just posted a video..?" She asked, looking at me. "We're a band.. That's what we do." I said. "Ten why isn't it about im the band?" She asked.
She must of watched it.. "What do you mean?" I asked, trying not to look nervous or anything. "You know what I mean." She said. I stood up. "Harper I'm-" I started but she cut me off. "Don't give me the 'I'm sorry' crap." She said. We just stood there, looking at each other for a few minutes. After a few minutes, she just walked out of the house. "Harper.." I said but she closed the door before I could say anything else. I sighed and walked out of the house after her. She was just sitting in out yard, with her knees pulled to her chest and her head resting on them. He arms were just laying beside her. I went and sat next to her.
"Why did you post the video?" She asked. "To protect you." I said. "Well it didn't work." She said, her face still hidden. "What do you mean?" I asked. "5 people have already called me attention seeking and a weak looser who needs to to die." She said. I sat there for a few minutes and ten her phone buzzed. She raised up, looked at it and her face dropped. "What? What's it say?" I asked, trying to see it. "This one says that I just run to my petty boyfriend whenever I get told the truth." She said, so low I could barely hear her. "You're not petty." She said and she put her phone down, rested her head back on her knees and I could tell she was crying. I stood up, gently pulled her to her feet and pulled her into a hug. We just stood there, hugging for a long time. I kissed the top of her head and she just started crying harder.
"Come on. Let's go back inside." I said and we both walked in the door. When everyone looked at her she went up to her room. "Guys, we have to cancel the rest of the tour." I said. "Why? Didn't they stop?" Connor asked, looking at me. "Nope. She was right. It only named it worse." I said, sighing. They all sighed and Riley took out his phone and started typing.
I sat down and decided to tweet the fans. I wasn't exactly happy with what they were doing and decided to tell them how I felt in 140 character or less.
I'm really disappointed in you all. I thought I could trust you guys with the most important person in my life and i guess I can't.
I hit tweet and stood up.
I went up to Harpers room and knocked on the door. "Come in." She said. I slowly opened the door and walked in. She was on her laptop, watching YouTubers. I noticed that she had a box of tissues near by and her red were a bit puffy so chances are she had been crying again.
No said anything for a while. Then she paused the video and looked at me. "Toby.. I.. Can I speak to you about something?" She said. "Of course. You know you can tell me anything." I said, sitting on her bed and looking at her. She was sitting at her desk a few feet away. "I... I can't do this anymore. I dont want you getting more hate just because you're dating me. There's better people out there who deserve you.." She said. She was looking every where but at me. "What.. What do you mean? I don't care about the hate and I don't want anyone else. I need you." I said. "No you don't. You don't need me. You just think you do.. Please.. Just... Stop lying to me." She said. "I'm not lying.." I said. She didn't respond.
"If this is about what the fans said-" I started but she cut me off. "It's not. I just realized that.. You're a great person. You deserve better." She said.
"No, i want you." I said. She didn't say anything. "Toby!!" I heard Thomas call. "I'll be back." I said as I got up to leave. As I was walking out the door, I heard Harper say lowly "you deserve better.. So in guna give you better."
I wasn't sure what that meant.. I hoped it was nothing bad.
The next day
I was watching tv while Connor and Riley were out. I decided to call Harper down and see if she wanted to go to the movies. When she came down, she looked totally different. I didn't like it tbh.
She was wearing a short dress and heels. She had curled her hair and was wearing so much makeup, you could barely see her eyes. Her heels are so tall, she could barely walk. She almost fell down the stairs but I caught her before she hit the ground.
"Harper, what are you doing?" I asked, looking at her as I helped her to her feet. "You deserve better. So I'm giving you better." She said as she stumbled into the living room. "You think this I better? I liked it better when you would walk down here with an over sized t shirt, no makeup, ripped jeans and your hair up.." I said, following close behind to make sure she didn't fall again.
"No, this is better. I'm pretty now." She said looking at me. "Harps.. You were always pretty.. Please don't change who you are." I said. "This is who I am." She said.
"No. You're the girl who does when One Direction comes on tv or is mentioned. You're the girl who likes to wear little to no makeup. You're the girl who wears Vans, jeans and a t shirt more than dresses and heels. You're the girl I love. This is someone else." I said. She stood there for a few minutes, not saying anything. "Stand here." I said. She nodded.
I went upstairs to her room and got a hair tie, makeup remover, a One Direction shirt and a pair of jeans. I headed back down stairs and she was still standing right there. "What are you-" she said but I began to put her hair up and then started to remove her makeup. She didn't try to stop me or say anything. After I did that, I sat her down, took her shoes off and told her to go change in the clothes I gave her.
She went in the bathroom and came out wearing the shirt and jeans. "There's the girl I know and love." I said smiling at her. She smiled back but it was obviously fake. I walked over to her and pulled her into a hug. She hugged back but it was loose. When we pulled away, her eyes looked like she hadn't slept in days. "Did you sleep good last night?" I asked. "I'm fine.." She said. She started playing her hands and avoiding eye contact. I could tell she was shaking and every time she would look at me, her face looked like she was calling for help. "What's wrong?" I asked nervously. "N-nothing." She lied. "Tell me." I said. "J-just anxiety.." She said. I pulled her into my arms and wrapped them around her tightly. "Don't worry.. I'm here." I said. She started crying. "It's okay..." I said, pulling her as close as I could to me. She was shaking and her heart was beating so fast. "Just take deep breathes.." I said. She tried but her breathes shook with crying and anxiety.
"You can get through it.." I said. Connor and Riley came through the door and looked at me when they saw what was happening. I just shook my head and they went up stairs.
I love them and everything.. But I just want some alone time with Harper right now. She started to calm down and when she had completely calmed down, I still didn't want to let go. Finally I did. "I... I think I'm going to go sleep for a bit.." She said and she started to slowly to climb the stairs and went to her bed room. I followed her and closed the door when we had gotten inside. "I'll tuck you in." I said. She just laid down. I walked over and pulled the covers over her. I turned to leave but just as I reached for the handle, she called me. "Please don't leave." She said. I looked back at her and she was sitting there, looking at me. "You don't want me to leave?" I asked. "No. Please stay.." She said. "Alright." I said and started to cover up in her chair. "Not there." She said. I looked at her and realized that she wanted me near her. I agreed and laid down on one side of her bed. She laid down next to me and looked at me.
"You don't have to stay if you don't want to.." She said. "I want to." I said as I put my arm around her. She cuddled up next to me and after a few minutes, fell asleep. I smiled to myself, listening to her breathes and the feel of her wary beat.
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AUTHORS NOTE:
Hai so yeah.. I leave for camp on the 11th and I'm so excited et so unhappy about it because I'm missing 2 Hunter Hayes concerts because of it but I do get to see my crush for 4 days and 3 nights. So yeah.. I'm preparing for that so chances are, updates are guna be even slower until after. I also wot be on at all on the 11-14th due to no wifi and I'm not allowed to bring my phone to laptop or anything like that (though I will bring my phone and just not use it..) so I love you guys SO much. Please stay strong xx I am here for you.
I will also try to update one last time before I leave.. The next chapter may not be very long or interesting but I'll try and see what I can put together. I'm also really sorry for any misspellings or anything Xx love you all, stay strong xx :)