My Love - Robin Buckley Robin Buckley x femOC

Chapter 13

Liz's POV:

I was still sat in the wheelers basement and I just came back from smoking some weed cause I was insanely bored there, when I look up to find Steve standing up looking incredibly confused however Dustin had different ideas on if it was confusing or not. Max was in the corner writing something, I didn't want to ask, we're both dealing with having a date of death differently. I was sort of used to feeling like this because as a child I obviously wasn't a fan of living so much, however now is different. Now my life is starting to turn out okay maybe even good but there's definitely parts I will still want to leave behind but I still don't want to leave Robin, I just, can't no matter how much I want to I always don't want to because I remember that I would be leaving her. I was sat on the couch waiting for Robin and Nancy to come back downstairs, i wanted to go with them but they wanted me to stay with them most amount of people.

 "It's pretty straight forward" Dustin said trying to explain what was happening to Steve, I couldn't be bothered to find out I'm going to die anyway right?
 "Ah Straight forward really?" Steve said in reply.
"Well what's confusing to you so far everyone Vecna cursed has died except for this old victor creel dude Nancy found. He's the only known survivor if anyone knows how to beat this curse its him." Steve says trying to debunk Dustin's theory.
 "Yeah that's assuming he was cursed Henderson which we don't even know. How can Vecna have existed back in the 50s it doesn't make sense" Steve says still being confused.
 "Remember Eleven didn't create the upside down she just opened a gate to it." I say to try to help him understand, but there's only so much a person can do.
"Yeah she's right for all we know the upside downs probably been around for thousands of years millions i wouldn't even be surprised if it predated the dinosaurs" Dustin says agreeing with me 
 "Ok ok but if a gate didn't exist in the 50s how did Vecna get through?" Lucas asks, also confused.
 "and how's he getting through now." Steve asks to no one in particular.
 "And why now?" Lucas keeps going.

At this point in their conversation I zoned out and thought about Eddie, what would he think to all this? Would he even believe it? Then Robin and Nancy came back downstairs to give us some new info on what is going on. I smile at Robin hoping that they have a plan on what to do. 

"Hey Robin could I talk to you for a sec?" I ask i have been wanting to talk to her for a while now just more about everything that is going on because I haven't been completely honest with her. 
"Yeah of course" she says looking down at me concerned.

We walk outside to the Wheelers back yard to talk, my hands start to sweat and I start to worry that she will be angry with me or shout. Anyway i managed to pluck up the courage to talk.
"So i wanted to erm.. talk about how err I haven't been entirely truthful." I say to her.
"What do you mean Liz, you know you can always tell me anything ." she said with a resasuring look on her face. 
"Well, i know i said that I have only been smoking normal cigs and then the occational weed but it hasn't really just been occasional, I've been smoking more than I ever really have, I don't know why probaly this Vecna crap but I guess life just got to much for me again and I know how you have said that I can talk to you I just find it extreamly hard to speak about my feelings", I feel my eyes start to tear up. "I'm sorry, I really didn't mean to relapse I know I was doing so well for you, I'm so sorry". I collapse into her arms and start to cry even more, I held it together for Max but I couldn't infront of Robin "I don't want to die Robin, I'm actually starting to like life finally." Robin held me in her arms and stroked my hair and telling me that it was alright, but nothing was going to be alright. Robin was lost for words, she didn't have a word left in her and usually that was never her problem, but today, today it was. 

I finally pull myself together and feel embarrassed by all of my emotions."Hey look you'll be okay, I'm not going to give up on you, you can keep going I believe that you can anyway, have you smoked recently like in the past few days?" she said to me reassuringly.
"Yeah I erm smoked a few moments ago, I'm sorry but I thought I'm going to die anyway so may as well have fun but I don't feel funny anymore", my mind was sort of running in circles.
"So you're high right now?" Robin asked me. I was staring at her now realising how pretty she was and I kissed her without thinking as my brain really wasn't thinking but she pulled away. "Liz are you high?" she asked in a stern voice. I gulped and replied, "yeah I did just say I smoked didn't I?" Robin just scoffed at me not taking me seriously, "Look Robin I am truly sorry that I have done this and I honestly thought you would've caught on that I wasn't acting the same", I say instantly regretting what I just said. "Liz why are you acting like this? This isn't you. " she says crouching to my level. "How do you know though Robin you haven't spoken to me about it I honestly thought you cared and I was stupid to think so!"
I stormed off into the woods by the wheelers.

I was walking back to Eddie, I needed to talk to someone and check up on him, and no one came after me so I just carried on to Rick's place. The fact that no one came to find me upset me the most. I mean if the Vecna theory was true then I was going to die and they obviously didn't care to find me. I felt betrayed by everyone so I was going to find the one person who has never ever judged me for who I am and that person is Eddie.

A/N

That's all for now this is the last of the drafts and well I'm now writing from scratch again I'm glad that people read this and I'm glad that even though I hadn't edited any of the other chapters people read them anyway, I really appreciate it.
Anyway have a good day/night :)

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