The Glossy Eyes

Chapter 37: living in the past

Amy's contagious energy filled the room, Alannah found herself caught in a moment of hesitation. She knew deep down that she could confide in Amy, but the weight of her recent experiences made her unsure of how to begin.

However, a flood of memories came rushing back to Alannah's mind, reminding her of the unwavering support and love she had received from Amy throughout her life. From the days of their childhood, through the loss of her parents and the challenges of living with blindness, Amy had always been there, a steadfast pillar of friendship.

With that realization, Alannah's hesitancy melted away. She took a deep breath and decided to open up, knowing that Amy would listen without judgment and offer the comfort she needed.

"Amy," Alannah began, her voice filled with a mix of vulnerability and gratitude, "I want to tell you something."

Amy's eyes softened, and she gently squeezed Alannah's hand. "You know you can tell me anything, Al. I'm here for you, always."

Alannah's voice quivered slightly as she recounted the events of the past months. She shared the story of how she met Nathaniel, and how he helped her everytime; however, she had discovered Nathaniel's hidden life, the betrayal she felt, and the subsequent distance between them. The weight of her words seemed to hang in the air as she finished, unsure of how Amy would react.

But instead of judgment or disappointment, all Alannah felt was the warmth of Amy's embrace. Amy held her tightly, squeezing her with a strength that conveyed unwavering support.

"Oh, Al," Amy whispered, her voice filled with empathy. "I can't even imagine what you've been through. But know that I'm here for you, no matter what. We've faced so many challenges together, and this will be no different. We'll figure it out, okay?"

Alannah nodded, tears welling in her eyes. In that moment, she felt the weight of her burden shared, the pain eased by the understanding and compassion of her lifelong friend.

Amy looked at Alannah with a curious expression, her head tilted to the side. "So, Al, tell me, is this Nathaniel guy really that good? I mean, you've mentioned how he's saved you multiple times and how he's the kindest person you've ever met. But if he's all that, why does it bother you so much that he's involved with the Mafia?"

Alannah sighed, her fingers absentmindedly tracing the edge of her cup. "I know, Amy. It's just... it's hard to reconcile the image of the caring, protective Nathaniel with the idea of him being associated with such a dangerous organization. I worry about the risks, the consequences that could come our way."

Amy smacked Alannah's shoulder. "Hey now, don't tell me you're afraid of a little danger! I've seen you handle some pretty intense situations with grace, my friend."

"Ow, Amy!" Alannah protested, rubbing her shoulder with a playful scowl. "Blind or not, I can handle myself, thank you very much."

Amy chuckled and leaned back in her chair. "Alright, alright, no more hitting. But seriously, Al, think about it. If Nathaniel truly cares about you, which I'm pretty sure he does, then isn't that what matters most? I mean, how many guys out there would go to such lengths to protect someone they love?"

Alannah fell silent, contemplating Amy's words. She realized that her fear and apprehension were overshadowing the fundamental connection she shared with Nathaniel—the love and support he had consistently shown her.

Alannah's voice trembled as she spoke, her frustration evident. "Amy, you don't understand. My parents... they died because of some drug deal gone wrong. I can't bear the thought of being with someone involved in that same world, the same darkness that took them away from me. It's too painful, too risky."

Amy's expression softened, her eyes filled with empathy. She reached out and gently squeezed Alannah's hand. "I'm so sorry, Al. I can't even begin to imagine the pain you've endured. Losing your parents in such a tragic way is unimaginable."

Tears welled up in Alannah's blind eyes, a mixture of sorrow and anger. "I've spent years trying to heal from that loss, to rebuild my life. And now, just when I thought I had found happiness with Nathaniel, everything feels uncertain again."

Amy nodded, her voice gentle and understanding. "I can see why you're hesitant, Alannah. It's natural to be afraid of history repeating itself, of getting caught up in a world that took so much from you. But remember, Nathaniel is not responsible for what happened to your parents. He's his own person, with his own choices and actions."

Alannah wiped away her tears, her voice choked with emotion. "I know, Amy, I know. But it's hard to separate the past from the present, to trust someone when my heart is still scarred. I don't want to lose anyone else I love."

Amy leaned in closer, her voice filled with reassurance. "You won't lose me, Al. I'll always be here for you, no matter what. And as for Nathaniel, maybe it's worth giving him a chance to prove himself. Hear his side of the story, understand his intentions. People can change, and sometimes, love can help them find the light even in the darkest of places."

Alannah sighed, her thoughts conflicted. "I want to believe that, Amy. I want to believe in love's power to transform and heal. But it's hard when the memories of my parents' tragic end still haunt me. I'm scared to take that leap of faith."

Amy looked at Alannah with a mixture of concern and frustration. "Alannah, I understand that your parents' death was a traumatic experience, and it's natural to be cautious. But you can't let that define your entire future. Nathaniel is not like those drug dealers who caused your parents harm. He's a good guy, and he cares about you."

Alannah sighed, feeling the weight of her past holding her back. "I know, Amy, but it's hard to let go of that fear. I've kept myself guarded for so long, and I don't want to get hurt again."

Amy leaned closer and spoke with determination. "I get it, Alannah. I really do. But holding onto that fear is also holding you back from experiencing happiness and love. Nathaniel has shown you time and again that he's different. Don't let the actions of others dictate your future. Give him a chance."

Alannah realized that Amy was right. She had been living in the past, closing herself off from potential happiness.

Amy, sensing the seriousness of the conversation, decided to lighten the mood and bring some laughter into the room. She grinned mischievously and exclaimed, "You know what, Alannah? I've got just the thing to help us forget our worries for a while!"

Alannah looked at her friend with a mix of curiosity and skepticism. "Oh, really? What do you have in mind, Amy?"

Amy dramatically pulled out a bottle from her bag and waved it in the air. "Ta-da! I've got some top-notch booze right here. It's time for a proper girls' night, complete with wild stories, embarrassing dancing, and questionable life decisions!"

Alannah couldn't help but laugh at Amy's enthusiasm. "Are you trying to get us wasted?"

Amy grinned mischievously. "Absolutely! We're going to create some epic memories tonight, and by tomorrow morning, we'll have forgotten all our worries and be ready to face the world anew."

Alannah hesitated for a moment, considering the idea. She realized that sometimes a little bit of fun and letting loose could be exactly what she needed. "Alright, Amy, let's do it! But just remember, you're responsible for any questionable life decisions we make tonight."

Amy raised an eyebrow playfully. "Deal! Now let's crank up the music, grab some snacks, and prepare ourselves for a night of epic adventures and laughter!"