𝘾𝙧𝙞𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙡 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙨

Safety in numbers // bau team x reader

Im back!! this will be comfort and fluff bc im a dumbass and did a vote. Warnings for crying and alcoholism. Anyways ily and sleep tight babes ❤️
Song: My angel by Adrianne Lenker 🌸🌿
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It was an early Wednesday morning, the leaves had just started regaining their original appearance, turning what was once a lifeless brown into a whimsical green, signaling the end of autumn and the start of the spring season. Normally this change would bring you great hapiness, Spring has always been your favorite time of the year. But this year, something felt different.

At first it was just a bad day, then the bad day turned into a bad week, next a bad month and so on. You have never felt like this, in fact you had never even heard of whatever it was you were sick with. Your symptoms were all over the place. You might not be a doctor, but the lasting fatigue, bouts of nausea, and extreme exhaustion definitely seemed worrisome to your untrained eye. However, you are going to have to put those thoughts on hold.

ring ring ring ring

"Agent Y/l/n speaking."
"Hey Y/n its JJ I was told to call you because we have a case, no need to bring a go-bag though, its local."
"Alright be there in 15"
"Bye!"
"Bye J."

You let out a deep sigh after ending the call and drag yourself out of bed and into the shower. Once you finished scrubbing your body you rinse and step onto a towel on the ground. Man I need to buy a shower mat. You go to the sink and finish getting ready, brushing your teeth and putting on a bit of mascara and some lip balm. As soon as your morning routine is complete, you go to your car and make your way to the FBI Quantico building.

Upon your arrival you are greeted by Spencer and Emily before walking in to the round table room to debrief.

You sit silently as JJ goes over the file with the team, but you couldn't seem to stay focused. After a while of staring at the wall, you're interrupted by a snap in your face.

"Y/l/n?" Emily said as she looked at you with a teasing expression. "Oh um yeah sorry I zoned out" you reply hastily. "No kidding, you weren't even listening were you?" She said snarkily. "Sorry Jareau go ahead" you say, choosing to ignore the raven haired woman. She nods and you listen as best as you can before the meeting ends and you're off to the first victims house.

Once you arrive at the victims house, you branch off, Emily going with you. "Hey are you alright? I didn't mean to make you angry earlier, I was just teasing" she said genuinely. "Yeah im alright, sorry for not listening, I got distracted" you reply. After a few moments of talking back and forth about the unsub, and finding out it's a woman, she asks very suddenly "You know you can talk to me right? We're family y/n/n, and I care about you deeply, I want to know if you're not okay, okay?" The confession caught you off guard slightly, but you are able to shoot back a quick "Yeah, and same goes for you princess" you wink at her to try and lighten the mood. "Theres the y/n I know" She laughs lightly. You finish up at the crime scene, and head back to the local P.D.

When you make your way back, you start to get that uneasy feeling in your chest, but choose to ignore it. After a long while with no changes in trying to catch the mystery woman, Hotch finally lets everyone go home, and you instantly pack up and head back to your apartment.

You hadn't told anyone on the team except Hotch that you were a recovering alcoholic, you felt that they would treat you differently or think that you were unable to do your job. You knew deep down that they would never judge you, but you still had your insecurities. After a few hours of watching shitty reality tv, you can barely focus, the feeling of withdrawal too much. You were almost 5 months clean of all alcohol, but you were really struggling tonight, it had been a shitty few weeks and you needed something to take the edge off. After a long internal battle, you knew you had to call one of your friends, but it just so happened all of your friends were also all your co-workers.