Wishing you mine

CHAPTER FIVE

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Rape

JUNE 2016 (8:25pm)

6 year's later.

i was sitting at the backyard in the middle of the night to have my peace of mind. 6 years had past and yet im still here suffering from my mom and step dad. nica and I are both studying at college but not like nica, i have to work all night just to have my allowance. I was like... student in the morning and worker at night, atleast pinapatira pa ako nila mommy sa bahay dahil kung hindi ay mas lalo akong mahihirapan. naisipan ko nang pumasok sa loob dahil sa lamig. I miss naya, nagresign na sya 2 months ago dahil kailanga ng mag babantay sa anak nyang nasa hospital, ang tanging naiwan lang ni, naya, saakin ay iyong teady bear na ibinigay pa nya noong 18th birthday ko nong nakaraang taon.

nang makapasok ako sa loob ay humiga na ako sa higaan at nagsimulang ipikit ang mga mata

a sudden knock on the door wake me. it's already 10:30 at night, sino naman kaya ang mang listorbo ng ganitong oras. when i open the door i saw tito leo.

"yes, tito? what do you need po?" i asked. feeling sleepy, sa paglabas ng mga salita mula sakanya ay syang paglakas ng kabog ng dibdib ko

"hindi ako makatulog, luna" a simple word but his volice make me feel nervous. why does he sounds like that, hindi ako pinanganak noong unang panahon para hindi ko maintindihan ang ganitong bagay, una palang ay na u-uncomfy na ako sa kanya kaya—

"ahh!--tito a-ano pong ginaga- wa mo?! tito!! s-stop" pagpigil ko dito ang kaninang kutob ay na palitan ng takot.

"i can't sleep thingking about you, luna"

"tito please, stop what you're going do please tito, im begging" i cred, tinulak ako nito sa loob at inilock nito ang pinto ng kuwarto.

"tito p-please, im begging."

"I'm sorry, luna. don't blame me you're fucking gorgeous, I can't stop thinking of you moaning my name, habang tumatagal ay mas lalo kang gumaganda kaya wag mo akong sisihin sa ganitong bagay, isang beses lang naman ito eh, mabilis lang I promise, noon palang nagpipigil na ako kaso nga lang hindi kinaya nito e"

"tito please, im scared please stop this. please—" i was going to say something but my voice ended up crying when tito leo is on top of me. I can't fight, i cant. i hope this was a dream, please.....

"hmmmm!!" i shouted

"shhh, be quiet, luna. isa lang to kaya pagbigyan mo na si tito!!"

i can't take this anymore, all my life... i suffered, ate lanna died, the only person who gave all her life just to protect me from pain. nica and mommy.... they always blaming me about that accident happend six years ago, dad leave me and now..... tito leo, who I treated as my own father for almost 6 damn years was fucking harassing me!!.

"t-tito... please. s-stop na poooo!!!" sigaw ako ng sigaw pero walang tumutulong, tanging iyak na lamang ang nagawa ko, i thought si tito leo na ang taong tuturing saakin bilang tunay na anak, but the worst is mas hayop pa sya sa hayop.... the hell? wala na bang mas lalala pa sa buhay ko? i guess this was the horrible day I've encountered since the accident happend akala ko makakamoveon na ako sa problemang yun but then the worst came... tito leo raped me, but all i can do is to shout and cry, I cant fight.

What did i do to suffer like this? I didn't deserve this... i only want to have a peaceful life but destiny always tells  me na wala nang ibang mangyayari sa buhay ko kundi puro kalokohan. my life is full of joke.

"AUGHHHH!!!" i shout as pain travelled my entire body, I can't move.

"t-tito, stoooppp!!" i cry and cry and cry hanggang sa matapos ang paulit-ulit na kahayupang ginawa nya saakin.