you ran me over!?! // jakehoon ff

twenty three - i have to go

"What is this convention thing I have to go to? All your fans are saying I'll be there with you." Sunghoon was scrolling through Twitter as he watched Jake make blueberry pancakes for dinner, per his request.

"I got invited to co-host a part of the event." Jake was shocked when he got an email from the office account that was organizing the event. "I'm hosting with Hanni." He's filmed with her a couple times. They make videos in English as they're both Australian. "Who am I kidding you probably don't know who she is."

Sunghoon shook his head, obviously clueless. "Yup no idea, but that's really cool."

Jake flipped the last pancake. "It's gonna be great, they rented hotel rooms for everyone and everything." The event was taking place where Jake was, but since so many people were coming in from different parts of Korea the organizers decided to rent rooms for the important people. Jake had let them know that he didn't need a room but they insisted. "They offered to get one for me and it's a 5 star hotel, no way I'm fighting that."

Jake was really excited. The part he was hosting was the q&a part followed by the fan meet including him and many other creators. Him and Hanni were meeting up quite a lot to plan. They both agreed that they wanted it to be amazing.

Suddenly Sunghoon's eyes squinted as he put his phone down. "Is she the one you've been hanging out with all the time?" The pout on Sunghoons lips made Jake chuckle. "Yes she is."

Because they were practicing so much Jake was out of the house a lot more. They tended to go out to plan, both agreeing that they didn't want to stay cooped up in their respective apartments all day.

She was taking up a lot of his time and he could tell that Sunghoon didn't like that. "You know you can't keep me all for yourself right?"

Jake turned the stove off, finally done with the pancakes. He took them and went to sit across from Sunghoon at the table.

Once he sat down Sunghoon clicked his tongue. "She's been taking up a lot of my Jake time recently." He wasn't even trying to hide the bitterness in his voice and Jake found it adorable. "Your Jake time? When did I become your Jake?"

Jake was too busy focusing on cutting his food to see the sincere gaze directed at him. "You've felt like mine for a long time." Jake stalled and looked at Sunghoon. "Huh?"

Sunghoon adjusted his posture, wanting to look genuine. They both joke around alot so he wants Jake to know that he is being honest. "Maybe this is all in my head Jake so please correct me if I'm wrong, but I think we both know this whole thing isn't a joke anymore."

Sunghoon was trying to maintain eye contact but he was starting to get clammy, realizing that this was much harder than he thought. This is why he needs to learn to think things through.

"I've been really happy these past couple months because youmake me really happy Jaeyun. I mean this from the bottom of my heart." He also didn't want to look at Jake directly in fear of seeing his facial expressions. You could always tell what Jake was feeling and he really wanted to finish what he was saying before potentially getting rejected. "I really like talking with you and having our stupid bickering contests. I like listening to you talk about your day even if it's just about you sitting down for hours on end. I really like hugging you and being able to listen to your heartbeat when we're lying together."

He could go on for days about the things he liked about Jake, but he wanted to get this done before he passed out of nervousness. "You're an amazing person Jake and I hope you know that."

Somehow, he found the courage to look at Jake. "I know this is sudden but I wanted to say it, I had to say it." He regretted his words immediately. Seeing Jake's furrowed eyebrows and guarded expression shattered whatever confidence he had in his body.

Jake scanned Sunghoon's face. It held so much vulnerability and sincerity that he almost started crying. "I um," He shook his head slightly, he couldn't do this. "I have to go to the bathroom." Jake turned on his heels, not seeing the light practically drain out of Sunghoons eyes.