bullied

chapter 17

well it turned 17 and i was in grade 11 the bulling had not stopped i was called name and when i took the parenting course and i had the baby doll they called me a slut and hoe, and whore, i was heart broken why would people bullied me i was a good person, so my life was not getting any better my arms were cut up pretty bad on both side and my boyfriend Joe loved me no matter what had happened.

"hunny i love you lets have sex" Joe said

"baby i am only 17 and i don't think i am ready" i said

"yes you are" he said

then he undressed him self then undressed me and throw me on the bed and i just went with it i did not scream i just did it with him i did not want to but i went with it, i was not happy with my self but i just gave up and lied there.

1/2 hour passed and he stop then he got dressed then left i just stayed in bed and did not move i was not happy i was saving my self for love, i was not sure if i loved him enough to have sex with him, but i guess i did not have a choice any more.

the next day at school he saw me and the came over and said it is over i cant be seen with some one that has cuts all up both her arm and all the scars too, people just look and keep watching in till we move far away like sorry but it is over. i was heart broken and could not take the stress any more i went home and did not even go to my class, then when i got home i my mom saw me.

"are you OK sweet heart" she said

"no i am not OK mom i just got dumped" i said

"why would he do that" she said

"i don't know mom" i said

i went to my room my mom did not know about the scars and cuts, because i did not want her to know so i wear long sleeve shirts, then i thought about killing my self i went to the bath room and found some cleaner and drank the bottle, then i hit the floor, my mom heard the big bang and came running and saw me with the empty bottle she ran and called 911 and told them i drank a bottle of cleaner, the sent an ambulance, and the paramedics came running in and told my mom to get out then my made me throw up in till it was all out of my body then they took me up to the hospital, i was mad with them saving me i was tired of being bullied, then a doctor came in my room and told me something i did not want to hear.

" i am sorry to say this but you are lucky we saved your and your baby's life" he said

"what i said i am not pregnant" i said

"yes you are and you could have killed your baby so now you are going to stay with us for a few days maybe even in till your baby is born if we cant trust you why would you try to kill your self any ways and why do you have all kinds of cuts on your arm" he asked

"because i did OK it not like it is any of your business" i said

"no you are right but it is the police" he said

then 2 police officer walked in they pulled out a pad of paper, i was scared i would have to lie but if i lied i would get in trouble too, i was in a problem what would i say just then my mom came running in.

"oh baby i though i lost you" she said

"sorry ma'am but you need to step out well we talk to your daughter" said one of the officer

"OK " said my mom

then she left

"OK here Samantha now it is time to talk why did you cut your self" said the male officer

"because OK" i said

"Samantha you need to tell us to truth you need help" said the female office