The Shy Extrovert

Chapter 15

Things are never the same as they appear. It is simply complicated that we tend to love beyond limits and forget how society would judge us but at a particular time we, all of a sudden, start caring about what society will give a stand over something. This time I was afraid of being judged. I never intended of trapping Ashish but I was afraid that the so called society would think so.

So, basically, I had to be someone who would not care about money, who actually I am. It becomes very difficult when you have to prove yourself. The party is beautiful. My favorite tracks are being played on round. The notes say "tu nazm-nazm sa mere hothon p theher ja" and I feel like saying a yes to him, but I have to control. I am having my favorite mock tail and the world feels so slow. Everything feels pink. I am on a different high. All of sudden, slowly the world feels spinning; no! my head is actually spinning. It's all dark. I could see someone. It is Vrishti. I am sorry for her. I smile at her, she doesn't smile back. She feels sad. She whispers, "You stole my Ashish. I hate you. I asked you to take care of him, but you... you are marrying him. I hate you. I hate you for this treachery. You betrayed me. Traitor! You are not a friend. You will pay heavily for this."I try to explain her, "Vrishti listen to me I don't intend to... listen I am sorry" she denied hearing my word. Her face has pain, anger and tears rolling her red eyes. She frowns at me and stares as if I have taken her most precious thing...

Some sounds could be heard. I am sweating heavily, panting. I cannot breathe. I am suffocating and suddenly open my eyes. I find myself in Ashish's room. He stands at the corner with the wall. "So, you're up? We had a good time making out. So, will you marry me or should I share this video to social media?" he spoke with a wink. "What the hell man? What are you up to? You just raped me. Like seriously ashu? You were my best friend. I loved you so much. And you ended up raping me. Wait! That drink had sleeping pills dissolved. Why? Ashish answer me. Why did you do this?" I shouted while I slapped him continuously grabbed his collar and shook him asking for answers. I don't know how to react. I am in tears and anger. I could feel myself as Vrishti in my unconscious dream. Did she mean this? I don't know. I hate myself. I don't know anything. My head hurts and I can hear a buzzing sound.

I sleep again. After hours I wake up and start crying. It is hard to believe that ashu could do this. I unwilling say for marriage but am truly trying hard to get out of this trap. It is a trap, my best friend betrayed me. I am caught into a quagmire, the hard I am trying to get out, the more I am getting into it. When your best friend ditches you, you feel isolated in the crowd. That very feeling haunts me and I feel like losing all my faith from friendship and relationships. Everyone is busy into marriage arrangements, except me. My happiness died, no it was killed. I wonder what his plans are and try to find out his phone. It is all happening in a jiffy that I could not figure out anything. I am confused and in huge pain. Tears keep on rolling my eyes but I cannot scream to fullest. I am frustrated and choking. I want to scream, shout my lungs out but I could not.

After a few hours, Ashish calls me downstairs. I had to follow him; else he would blackmail me again. I was still sleepy and he was introducing his wife to everyone. Everyone was blessing the new couple. Wait... what!!! Ashish got married to someone else. Whatever is happening is out of my brain. He introduced his brand new wife, Megha Ashish Raichand to everyone. Megha, I saw her in a glimpse and thought she was Vrishti. God!!! She looks so similar to her. A slender girl with curly brown hairs, beautiful grey eyes and a mole on left chin. The way she smiled is so similar to Vrishti. "Vrishti is that you?" I say with amazement and happiness. "She is Megha, Vaishnavi. She is my wife. We got married now." he said. "But you... you said that you wanted to marry me... you blackmailed and I cannot understand anything."I was confused. I felt that my world shattered in seconds. He continued, "That was a plan. You planned to be my wife and I planned to destroy you. Thank you that you did so much but you never deserved me. Life is chessboard sweetheart and I choose to checkmate. I won Vaishnavi and you still remained a looser. You were my best friend until I met Megha."

I am feeling as if I am dead inside. I am just breathing but not alive. I somehow go inside and cry myself to sleep.