I love you, but it's a felony

pt:19

My phone rang on the night stand right next to the bed so I get up and go to pick it up noticing "Unknown Caller ID"
I answer not knowing who it was with just a voice in the background.
Hello who is this?
"Hi is this y/n l/n"
Yes this is she.
"Well um I would just like to say that a funeral has been planned by a younger girl who asked for you and it apparently was your mother who passes on, I am very sorry for your loss"
Oh um thank you..
I hang up the phone and place it back down as I walk out to the living room with a shocked face on with all the boys sitting down and Tom and georg wrestling.
"Hey what's wrong darling" bill says looking up at me as I just sit on the ground next to bill who was on the couch.
Um.. She's dead..
"What! Who" bill says as all the boys head shot up to look at me.
My mom.. And apparently the funeral has already been taken care of...
"Oh my god, I am so sorry.. " bill says sitting on the floor pulling me in for a hug.
"Why aren't you crying, shouldn't you be crying, I know your mom left you and everything but wouldn't you miss her" tom says out of nowhere.
I um..dont know.
I sit up from the floor and just walk back to bills room as I put actual clothes on so I'm not just in my shorts and a T-shirt. I put on a black pair of jean shorts and a brown T-shirt tucked in the shorts a little.
I put on my sneakers and glasses on my head pulling my hair out of my face and I put my makeup on really quick.
I call the person back and ask where the funeral is being placed at and when do I show up to see her before being out into the ground.

After I get the details I walk back into the living room and ask if any of them want to come with me to see my mom before she gets put into the ground.
They all said yes to pay their respects and say goodbye.
I get into the drivers seat while bill in the front and the three boys in the back, on our way there the whole car ride was silent.

We pull up into the driveway getting out of the car as I walk in first with bill behind. I go to the person up front and ask where my mother was so I could say goodbye.
The lady pointed to the room on the right with a entrance, I look in the room and see the casket open and apparently my other younger sister there.
I groan and tilt my head back and bill puts his hand on my shoulder and nods his head at me telling me thats it's gonna be okay and to just say bye then we can go.
I walk into the room feeling the tension, I walk up to the casket and looking at her, the girl right behind me bawling her eyes out and as much as I love seeing the girl feel upset I kinda hated it, I understand she was her mother too but she was my mom first and I never got the attention that she had.
I start giggling a little as I see her in the casket knowing I shouldn't be laughing but I just can't stop.  I walk out of the room where the boys were and they see my laughing confused on why I'm laughing, I walk out to the car leaning my head on my car sighing. I went back inside and asked when she was getting put into the ground and they said in 2 days. I nodded and said thank you while gesturing to the boys to come on so we we can go home.
We all get into the car and I start the car backing up and leaving the shithole of where my mother and sister were.

We made it home and it's been at least a day and tomorrow my mom was getting burried.

Bills pov:

Im worried about y/n, she hasn't cried once, I even tried to talk to her but she hasn't shed one tear.
"Yea I realised that, she would've cried by now" Gustav says as he looks worried.
I wanna talk to her again about it but I feel like that won't change a thing about it weither she cried or not.
I get up out from the living room and walk back to my room where y/n is, I walk in and see her just doing her makeup.
"Oh hello my love" she says as she makes her way towards me giving me a quick kiss before walking back to the desk to finish her makeup.
I pull a chair over to where she is sitting and I move her facing me and I grab her hand as she just looks at me very confused.
Can we talk about something.
"Yea what is it" she says smiling a little.
Aren't you sad about your mom.. Dying and not being able to see her again...
"Of course I am upset, what make should think I'm not? "
Well because you haven't shed not even one tear..
"Oh well some day I will break down and then non stop crying, huddling in a corner with my hair messed up, marcara all over my face and my clothes dirty from not being able to even take a shower.. " she says super fast as she just looks at the ground no longer smiling.
I look at her hoping she would at least start crying or tears at least show but.. Nothing...
I grab the side of her face cupping her cheek with my left hand making her look at me.
I want you to know if you every have to talk to me you can my love..
" I know, I love you so much and I trust you"
Her words make me no longer smile but look down with my hands on my face knowing she wouldn't say that and something really is wrong because she isn't a very genuine person who just speaks what's on her mind.
I give her a kiss on the cheek before leaving the room.