I love you, but it's a felony

pt:14

I walk into the bathroom and flip the test over to see that I am pregnant.
No,no,no,no,no...
I start crying and run out into the room hugging bill with my makeup running down my face.
"I'm so sorry my love"bill says hugging me tighter also starting to tear up.
I let go and wipe my tears.
I-i don't think I'm ready.. I mean I'm gonna be an mom, and ugly mom.
"No you will be an amazing and beautiful mom, and if you aren't ready there is always time"bill says holding the side of my face as I put my hand on his hand.
"Do you wanna tell the others or keep it a secret for now"bill says.
Tell the boys..
"Ok my love let's go"bill says grabbing my hand and we walk out of the room and call all of the boys to come into the living room.
The boys sit down, bill sits next to Tom and georg sits next to Gustav. I start to tear up as tears drop down my face.
I-im pregnant..
"WHAT" the boys say other than bill and tom. Tom just looks at the floor and gets up grabbing my hand and pulling me into the other room while the boys look confused.
"Is it mine.."Tom asks.
I-i don't know Tom..I just had found out..
Tom looks into my eyes and pulls me into a kiss and I kiss back but then push him back slapping him across the face as bill saw the whole thing. Bill pulls me back into his room and sits on the bed with his hands on his head.
"Do you love him.."bill asks.
What no bill, I love you..
"Then why did you kiss him back.."bill says looking up at me with tears in his eyes.
Oh bill...
I can't stand his doe eyes when he looks at me, it's like I can't lie to him or anything.
It just happened, I was shocked and just I guess couldn't move.. I'm so sorry my love...
He tilts his head and stands up, he's like 6'3 and he pulls me in for a kiss, I kiss him back.
I really really am sorry...
"I know my love, that's why I have to let you go..."bill says.
Wait what..
"If the baby is toms then it deserves to be with it's dad.."bill says.
I-i don't even know if I want the baby bill, please you can't do this to me I have already lost enough..
I start to cry and turn around with my hands on my face as bill goes to hug me but I push him off running out of his room and the boys notice me crying, I ran out of the front door and it's raining hard with lighting and thundering. Bill chases after me and grabs my arm which makes up both slip and fall in mud.
JUST GET OFF OF ME..
"my love.., you deserve better ok, I'm sorry"bill says.
BUT YOU WERE BETTER FOR ME BILL, TOM TREATED ME LIKE SHIT, AND YOU FUCKING KNEW THAT.
" Do you know what y/n, when you love someone you let them go even if it hurts worse for you.."bill says crying.
...bill..
"I'm sorry okay but if this isn't my child I don't deserve you, Tom does.."he says.
No bill I don't want Tom I want you, I don't even know if it is bill and if it is I won't tell him okay and I won't even have this baby, I will do whatever it takes to keep you with me forever bill...
"I-im really sorry"he says grabbing my hand.
I push him off of me and get up getting in my car and go to my house. Once I get to my house I go in and slam the door going up to my room which has a bathroom in it and I take a shower since I'm filled with mud, after the shower I get changed and brush my hair out untill I hear the door open downstairs forgetting that I gave the boys an extra key. Someone knocks on the door and I let them know they can come in.
"Hey y/n.."Tom says.
Hi, what do you want.
"Well I just wanted to come hang with you"he says smiling.
No, you ruined my relationship with bill and just like you ruined ours and now I don't even know who baby this is and if I should even have it, I mean if I have it either way it's not that it's gonna have a father figure cause you both are shit.
"I know but I'm sorry"Tom says.
No I don't want to hear it, get out now.
"Fine" Tom says going to open the door to walk out but he stops and turns around.
"I love you.. and so does bill.."Tom says then finally walks out.