The 99 ways I loved you

Chapter 4

I won't come out for dinner, I spent most of the time crying and half of the time writing I made it to 60 thing I loved about Harry.

*Knock knock*

It was Eleanor...

"Britney, Were going outside put on your bathing suit and come have fun"

She said smiling.

She quietly shut the door.

They've been at me for a while so I gave in. I tied my hair up in a slick pony and put my bikini on.

I shut my door behind me and walked into the living room.

"Gorgeous! Come on lets have some fun" Eleanor said leading me outside to the lake.

When I got down to the water the boys looked really happy to see me.

They all hugged me.

"Babe Im proud of you" Perrie said placing her hands on my shoulders.

I shot her a weak smile.

The whole time they all were playing in the water. I just sat ashore. Watching...

..............

The past couple of days were rough, I pretended to eat, pretended to take my pills and pretended to be 'happy'.

I plotted all day and when it was bed time I waited, quietly till they were sleeping.

I opened my door and quietly snuck past Louis and Eleanor's room. I peered in and saw them sleeping silently.

Everything seemed to be okay so far.

I slipped my shoes on and shut the door running to the lake in the cabins front yard.

No houses in sight, and the sky was a clear one with a half moon. It was slightly warm outside.

I ran to the lake where there was a long wooden dock leading to the boat house.

I threw my shoes off and ran bare foot down the slim wooden dalk.

I didn't know what I was doing here... it's just I felt the urge to come to the dock.

I sat at the edge staring into the water, it was clear. I poked my toe into the water it was warm.

So I sat at the edge with my legs in the water.

Then all the sudden I plunged into the water.

I began to tread the water under my body fast. It made me tired,

The water was up to my neck and constantly I would swallow some.

My legs began to cramp up and my arms began to lack.

I gasped and gasped but all I got was water and little air.

I grabbed the dock, putting my feet on the wooded edge then I pushed back.

Water spread around me, there was nothing to grab,

I was tired and the water current was pulling me down.

Then I let go, letting me sink...

I lay meters down at the bottom of the lake.

The last thing I remember was my lungs feeling like they were about to explode.