The 99 ways I loved you

Chapter 1

Chapter 1:

I call Liam. And then sit there alone... Alone until I hear the faint sound of the sirens.

I'm still sitting on the floor when the paramedics enter the room as they drag me back, everything is in slow motion I don't fight them... I can't

as they release me I enter someone else's grip the only difference is this grip is warm.

"Britney" I look up shakily

and Liam is there holding me before we're told to go.

I see Harry for the last time before a thin white sheet is swept over his once filled body.

I sat outside when Liam approached me "You're going to get through this" He says wrapping his arms around me. My eyes became sore and my throat choked up I couldn't get words out.

Then I heard a car door slam and before I knew it Louis and Niall were running up to us.

......................

The boys were worried about me yesterday; I spent the whole day moping about,

I even blew off lunch with Eleanor and Perrie.

I flopped onto the stiff couch throwing a blanket over my body,

Just like they did to Harry...

I couldn't bare to think about Harry he was the one I would see every morning and every night what we had was special and I don't know how long I can do this before-...

*Beep beep*

I let out a huge groan, my phone was vibrating off the wall full of tweets, emails, texts and calls.

I didn't have the strength to do anything I just wished I'd died with Harry.

*Knock knock*

"Britney,Britney are you okay Hun"

I heard Eleanor yell from the door.

I didn't bother answer after a few minutes she gave up.

I listened closely until I heard a car pull out of the drive way.

I closed my eyes and began to slowly fall asleep.

"Britney" I heavily opened my eyes

Once I saw those green eyes I sprang up and held him tightly.

"I love you so much" He whispered into my ear.

As I pulled away I still stared at him in shock,

"Harry... I-I thought you were dead "Tears began to flood my eyes.

"No... No babe "He said whipping my eyes.

I wrapped my arms around him, he was warm and his touch was so soothing he opened his mouth.. when

*Ring *Ring

I jumped out from the sheet to see my phone vibrating again flooding with tweets.

I open my twitter on my phone to see thousands of replies to a tweet, from Louis

"Stay strong xx"

Tears became sliding down my cheeks,

In anger I threw my phone and it slide across the wood floor.

I dropped from the couch to my knees.

It had been 3 days since Harry had died.

The days only made it worse.

"What's a life if you have no reason to live it" I whispered...

*Knock knock*

"Their back..." I whispered

I can't face my friends I can't face anyone, I'm a mess.

I climbed the stairs to my bed room. Quickly I went into my dresser and pulled out a big blue notebook

With gold writing on the outside.

Grabbing a black inked pen I began to write:

1: I love your laugh it makes me feel alive

2: The ways your eyes sparkle when you look at me

3: When you tell me you love me and hold me close to you

4: The way I fall asleep on your chest and you stroke my hair

5: Comforting me when I need you.

I shut the note book and climbed down the stairs with the notebook and pen held to the right side of my body.

Writing about you comforted me it makes me feel like you're still there.

Putting the cover back over my head I began to write

6: How I felt like I've known you forever

7: Your hugs

8: The way you kiss me

9: How you tell me you'll love me forever

10: How hard you make me laugh...

I fall asleep with the notebook clutched in my hands.