About a girl who dreams of a guy every night
She looks forward to sleeping every night just to see him cause he is the only thing that replaces her loneliness, she knows he isn't real , or what if
I was getting used to University so far , although I wished I had more time to discover what I wanted to do in life, I don't think studying for 12 years and having to go for even four years or more and working for the rest of your life sounds ideal. But it was life and I had to deal with it either way . I really wanted to get a degree in computer science, I like to code most of the time and I find it fun being able to program things. I wanted to stay even more focused but lately I felt distracted . I felt distracted by Troy not like he was doing anything but the more he's around me the more I like him and want him but I still feel nervous and anxious around him . Then there's thst asshole he calls a friend, for some reason that guy has something against me but I don't know why . I was used to it, all the bullying from men , most of the time It was because of my weight the other was they just hated me for no reason. But I just decided to not care anymore .
I was drinking a cup of coffee reading a book at a cafe in the college campus , it was raining so I decided to wait till it was over and rest till my next lecture. I held the cup of coffee close to me feeling it's warmth. Being here felt like a breath of fresh air for someone reason but also sad and lonely at the same time, I felt lonely most of the time ,I only had one friend which was Troy but it seems like he's moved on and started to like others . I've always thought that I'd be lonely forever but it was just a thought but now it seems like as I grow up it feels like it's becoming reality.
The door to the cafe opened and Troy came in with water dripping down his forehead and he was out of breath and he looked around and saw me his eyes softening. He walked over to my table and sat down in front of me . "What are you doing here..?" He took of his coat and placed it onto the chair . "Oh well it started to rain while I was outside so I ran to the nearest cafe and also because I wanted some coffee, but.. I wasn't expecting you to be here but I'm not complaining." He smiled looking at me. He continued to look at me with a smile on his face and I just looked down at my coffee instead because eye contact isn't really my thing. "So..how have you been ? Any friends ?" He asked. I shook my head and took a sip of my coffee "Making friends is hard for me, but for you it seems like it comes fairly easy, I wish to be you most of the time." I sighed being honest because most of the time I really wish I was him, he's friendly and nice and beautiful , but I'm just the opposite of all of that. He reached out putting his hand ontop of mine, "I don't think there's anything wrong with you ,!yeah you may have confident issues but that dosent mean you can't work on them. If only you saw yourself from my perspective." His eyes seemed earnest and he looked at me with affection. I felt bad that he was friends with me and kissed and touched a person like me , someone who doesn't even love themselves, someone who loves someone more than themselves. He deserved to be friends with a better person than with someone like me. "If you want to talk more I'm here ." Troy said giving me a small smile and he rubbed my hand with his thumb once more. I hated how nice he was , it's like he was almost perfect, it feels like the more I'm around him the more I start to like him. ——————-_____———————— Hi sorry for the late update, I've been insecure about my writing and also was running short on ideas so please forgive me and bear with me 🙏
Also if there's any complaints or mistakes please tell me and I'll gladly fix them, I'm also open to feedback so feel free to give me some .
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