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Title: The Only Way is Up.

:Lay By My Side - Sam Smith:

-Zayn-

Where do you take a guy with a broken tooth? Dentist or hospital? I decide against the dentist and make my way toward the hospital. Niall sits in the passenger sit, holding- no, clenching onto his jaw. "Niall, I-" I start again. "I honestly don't care." Niall says. Turning and looking out of his window.

"I feel light-headed. There's so much blood..." Niall mumbles. I want to pull over and help him but, I need to get to the hospital. Quick. "Niall? Stay with me, okay? Were almost there." I say, pressing down on the gas pedal.

I look over at him and minutes later, he passes out. I put my hand on his thigh, and park the car in the parking lot of the hospital. I rush inside with Niall in my arms. I look at the lady at the desk, and she points towards the left. I follow her direction, and let the doctors take it from here.

I place him on the dolly and explain to the doctors what happened. I don't tell them I punched him, I instead, tell them he hit his month against the counter.

"And your sure that's what happened sir?" He asks. I nod my head in agreement. "Alright. Well, we'll do our best." He says, pushing the dolly away into a empty room, allowing the other doctors to take care of it.

I take this moment to call a few family members and friends.

**

Everyone I called said they'd be here after work so, I guess I just have a wait here.. Alone. Which gives me time to think.

Where do I even start? Words can't describe how much feeling I'm feeling right now. He was/is my everything. And I can't believe I pushed him away because of some stupid stuff that happened that night.

I pushed everyone away that actually cared about me. I pushed them all away because why? Because of a drunken mistake. A very big mistake.

And I took all my anger out on Niall. To the point where I punched him. I punched him! I can't even listen to myself. I'm so selfish. I hurt him because I'm hurting myself. I didn't even listen to what he had to say.

I just had to be myself. My selfish, annoying, pushy self. Looking back at it, after he gets well, I'm just going to hurt him again. Not physically but emotionally. I have to tell him. I can't keep this to myself. Not today, not ever, not never. I have to tell him. Because I.. I love him.

I need him as much as he needs me. He'd stay with me no matter what happened. Because he's not a selfish, annoying, pushy person. He's mine. All of mine.

And I guess that does make him selfish, annoying, and pushy.

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I'm backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

Not that it matters.

Or that you missed me.

But thank you guys for supporting me.

I hope this doesn't change anything.

I'm still the same, crazy, wacky, girl you all love so much.

Followers:

Yeah, right.

Sureee

Whatever helps you sleep at night

Um, okay