Louis's pov
"you're my best friend forever." harry says as he hugs me i hug him back tightly
"you're mine hazzie!" i giggle and hug him
a pair of hands grab me away from him and throws me on the ground "get off of him you freak!" harry starts coughing like he's dying..
"no no no no please please i need him please!" i shout and run to him only to be pushed back by a barrier
"please.." i choke out
i wake up gasping as harry holds me "what happened what did you dream about?!" he holds me close to him and i sniffle "hazzie." i mumble into his chest and he kisses my head
"i'm sorry baby. you were shaking and whimpering i guessed something might've been wrong. he's in a better place boo." he kisses my head again and i hold onto him "i wish i could've done more to help" i say and harry sighs "baby it wasn't your fault. and you were 5! what the fuck could you have done?" i shake my head "i don't know h. i miss him." it sounds stupid. i remember a distorted version of him i don't remember what he looks like. what he sounds like nothing i remember the feeling he gave me. the fucking feeling of home.
"what do you want for breakfast boo." he says trying to distract me clearly "i want eggs and hash browns and pancakes." he chuckles
"i'm gonna go get that for ya wanna tag along?" he asks and i shake my head "i'll stay here." he kisses my head and walks out
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Harry's pov
1 message from li low 👨🏻🦲
hey i'm going out to get me and ash breakfast come with.
me
i was going to get me and lou breakfast so yes i'll meet ya at the lobby
i stand in the middle of the lobby waiting for his majesty before he finally graces me with his presence.
"took you long enough." i say and he rolls his eyes "ash was being clingy." i look to the hickeys on his neck my plan is working. WOOOOO ahem i mean oh great woho
"so you and ash huh? things been going smoothly?" i ask and he smiles oh god
"he's an animal just sex apon sex apon sex it's crazy and he's so cuddly after ugh i want to fucking marry him" that's not really how relationships work but i'm not gonna ruin this right now
"happy for ya." i smile and liam smiles and goes onnn and onnnn and onnnnnnn about fucking ashton jesus christ why's this guy so intriguing to everyone i get me and louis's breakfast before we head to the hotel room to say i was pleased to leave liam was an understatement
i walk in and find him painting his nails "oooo prettyyy" he beams as he sees me "i've missed you you take too long" he gets up and carefully hugs me
"sorry baby liam tagged along" he chuckles and i lay out all of our food and we eat and talk then we both decide that we're pregnant and pregnant ladies need naps so that's exactly what we do once we get up it's night we decide to go out for dinner
"hazzz i wanna dress fancy!" i giggle and nod "wear whatever baby!" i say and he huffs
"i'll look like an idiot if i do it alone. do it with me pretty pleaseeeee?" i think for a little i did bring a white button up for the gallery thingy.
"okay just get dressed okay we have to go" he giggles excitedly and goes to put on a beautiful dress my god he's the end of me i swear. stop being so gay you like women.
he links our hands together and walks out proudly and i giggle we go to dinner eat some food pay wayyy too much but i've got the bill so it doesn't matter
we go home changed into my clothes yes both of us are wearing my clothes and yes louis has available clothes but my clothes apparently 'feel better'
he looks adorable anyways so idrc we're now cuddling again my hand on his waist his face buried into my chest then i sigh i have to ask for fucks sake i hate myself
"hey lou?" i ask and he looks up at me "what's up buttercup?"
i take a deep breath in before i speak "how did you know you were gay" he chuckles
"erm i guess i always just liked guys more the thought of being with girl's romantically lowkey disgusted me" he giggles and looks at me "why?"
the question i've been dreading "i think i might be gay." i look to him and he nods "you can kiss me to see if you are for sure?" wait what
"really?" i ask and he nods sitting up "sorry if i suck i've never kissed any guys before" he giggles.
"i can lead if you want me to." i nod "please" with that he leans in and pressed his lips against mine it felt good. too good. fuck i'm gay. i slip my tongue in and he lets me. holy fuck.
he tastes so good fuck suddenly he pulls away giggling "okay. do you feel any different? did you like it?" he asks
i nod shyly then turn around laying in bed pulling the covers up to my chest. "night lou" he frowns
"sorry if i made it weird." he says and gets out of bed walking out. i couldn't hold it in anymore i just started uncontrollably sobbing until i fell asleep. i'm gay. i like boys. no i can't be i've been with girls my whole life. but him. he's just- fuck i hate everything!
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