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Chapter 17

Dallas Everett

I opened my eyes and looked at Dahlia. I was lost in thoughts. I was so dumbfounded that I couldn't control myself well when I was around her. I know, being with her is wrong, but even if it will hurt.
Just this once, the pain can come later.

"Dallas." as she separated our lips knotted with each other. "My lipstick stained the corner of your lips." I looked and held both sides of her waist, grasping it as our distance was so close we could feel our breaths when we talked. Dahlia looked at me and wiped the stain made from her lipstick. "Sorry."
"I have to actually go. I have to do something personal." as I picked up my phone and hurried to go out. I heard a mutter from Dahlia as I was walking off, "He really just left me like that."
I walked towards her again, and pushed my lips to her forehead. I found it funny. I had to adjust my height with hers, it was cute rather than funny. I take that back.

"I'll see you tomorrow."
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Dahlia

Is everything happening to me, indeed, real? It's not a dream right? It's not just any dream, I know for sure. "Dahlia, wake up or don't." as I pinched my own cheeks and screamed along with the butterflies in my stomach, I immediately jumped in my bed and forced my scream as I stuffed my mouth in my pillow.
Today was fucking real.

I caressed the part where he kissed my forehead, I know we were nothing but even with this little time we have. I know this something we have is wrong, so I'll let myself die in this illusion of love that Dallas and I have made for now. Katherine knocked on my door, and hugged me. "I'm finally employed!" I looked at her and held her hands together as we jumped happily. "Come in! Come in!" as I pushed her in my apartment.

"Wait." She sniffed the smell in my apartment. Ah fuck. I forgot she was this observative freak. "It smells different today, why does it smell like your room was filled with perfume?" She looked at me suspiciously.
"My perfume must have been spilt." as I try my best to cover it up. Katherine focused her gaze on the two cups that had the bits of fruit.
— It was the blended juice that Dallas made for us. I'm really doomed, I got caught.

"So, how will you cover this one up now?" She looked at me, crossing her arms together, and pinpointing the two cups with her lips. She grabbed the cup of water I prepared for myself then I had then blurted out something. "Dallas came over." A dam of water from her mouth started spilling as I said it. "Him?!" as she wiped her mouth. "Yes, him."
"Oh my god, Dahlia! You're a grown up now."
as she hugged me tightly as if I was a child who accomplished something extra.
"You're hugging me too tight, I can't breathe." as I smiled and shook her hands off my body. A doorbell was suddenly heard, and I hadn't even invited someone. I came near my door, and opened it. It was January.

"Dahlia! I need help." as she entered the room and glanced at Katherine. They didn't know each other nor did they have an idea about each other. They sat in front of each other as they glared into each other cautiously. They spoke up to me who was sitting in the middle of them. "I have a question." Katherine asked, then followed by January. "I have a question too." They glared into each other and unexpectedly they both blurted out their questions all together.

"Do you like him?!"
"Was my brother here?"
As soon as I heard those questions, I was immediately trapped with the answers.
"One by one. Yes, I was with him January."

Katherine and January sat closer to me on both sides like there was nowhere to escape.
"Do I?" as Katherine facepalmed and January sighed.

Katherine turned my body sideways by grabbing my shoulders. "Then what happened with the both of you, come on!" as January's eyes plead for an answer. "I'm confused whether he's playing with me or not."
I look at January. "My brother's definitely the type to play, but the way he adamantly admitted that he was here was strong of him. He would usually say nothing if he played around with someone, I hope." I had to trust January's instincts because he was her brother and she knew the person within the same blood very well. So I couldn't refute but to surrender to accept it.
"If you ask me if I like him.." I looked at both of them nervously. "I mean I do. It feels wrong though, I mean he's the right person, I guess?" I was well aware about how liking him could lead me to a reckless decision that I'd suffer but I didn't want that. January clasped my hands together with hers, and talked.
"He will change, if he wants to." She looked very hopeless.
"I mean he can change, January. I'll help him!" I had to drown myself with the imagination that he needs change and I could be that change for him.
"You shouldn't just fall in love with the potential." That's right, January's right.
I think I've fallen in love with Dallas knowing we might have the potential I have been finding in a relationship.

I was overlooking our chances of being together because I believed all along he had the potency to love someone he couldn't imagine to love.

"I think your friend's right, Dahlia." as Katherine agreed. "You don't deserve to get hurt, at all. Are you sure about it?"
I looked at both of them with no more hope in my hands.
"Though, I know that my brother's gonna realize it soon. Just wait, he should be the one to approach. My brother should be the one to express his feelings to you." January told me, all I just needed to do was sit back and wait. I didn't know if January was warning me or giving me hopes — it was both signals that she gave me. Now it was my job to find out which one fits my situation with Dallas.

That was all a hopeless girl could do when in love with someone uncertain.