I FELL IN HATE WITH YOU

Chapter One

Amara

I have tried everything to end my life.

Every time I get so close and then somehow alive. In my seventeen years of existence, days like today are the worst. It is going to be my final year at this school. I cannot wait for this to end. End it once and for all. but today is not about me, it's for my mom. She has lived for the dream that we will be successful one day.

A sneak peek of my life is my mom(Saida), my sister(Zara) and obviously me. We got separated from a dysfunctional family. Now we struggle daily to somehow survive. We live in a small apartment not so far from the market. My mom works day and night to provide for us at dinner. She cooks there and god it tastes amazing.

Someday I will help her start a business. Then whatever profit we make will help us live better. My sister goes to college and works an evening shift to pay for her expenses and help her mom. I know it is nothing big and boujee but at least we have each other.

Apart from a painless death, my ambition is to become a Journalist. Yes, I know it's impossible for a person like me who is automatically assumed as mute in a crowd. I can't save my life by talking. But it fascinates me to live recklessly.

I have been standing in front of this mirror for ages now. All I see is a girl with dead brown eyes covered in glasses, waist-length brown hair, a bare face, and a uniform that appears to be worn by nuns in the church.

"Amaraaa." my mom screamed across the hall.

"We are late, Hurry up." comes another scream from my lovely sister.

"Just a minute" I yell back and make my way to the living room. I see two annoyed faces staring back at me.

"Are we leaving yet? We are getting so late" I say putting on my sweetest smile. My mom goes back to making me breakfast and my sister is on the phone. Exactly what I need this morning. Silence. I ate a few bites of breakfast in that silence. Thanks to no pep talk on how to focus on this important year of school.

My school is nothing special with strict teachers and students all their heads in pride like they own everything in it. It is a huge campus I must say with assemblies in the mornings, a Basketball court, a huge library and whatnot.

My sister drives me off to school today. Wishing me all the luck. Not to mention her whole humans are not dangerous. If I talk I might be able to make a friend or two. It's not like I don't have friends. I used to have in the past but people just fade out of our lives. I used to have a best friend all my life. Her name was Nadia. She was a year senior to me. She had to graduate last year leaving me all alone in this stupid school.

I'm a tad bit hurt that it was so easy for her to find new people and become friends so easily, Yet here I'm drowning in my self-pity. We still meet on occasion. It also helps that she goes to the same college as my sister Zara.

Zara takes a last turn in her second-hand Hyundai which she bought from her part-time job in an evening job at a small IT company. My nerves are on the edge. I want to run back home and not see new people or some old ones with awkward smiles.

"Bye-bye!! baby. you will do great this year. I love you." Said my sister as I was getting out.

"Bye, Love you more" I mumbled and started walking while she drove off. I enter as the first bell rings. If you must know one thing about me I'm always late, no matter how early I try to get to class the whole universe conspires against me. so I miss the orientation and go straight to the administration to take the schedule of my class.