ALvin has depression

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Sooooooo todays the day of the party. I'm currently thinking about how now i can now actually enjoy having fun at a party now that I think I'm cool with Elmo now. Got my airpods on listening to everytime we touch because yuuhhh this song is a banger waiting for when we arrive.

Later when we finally arrive I see Miku standing outside of the building and waving at me. I step out the car and walk to her to say hi. MIku goes at mach speed and tackles me to give me a huge hug practically almost suffocating me with that huge of her. "( •̀ ω •́ )✧OMGEE HiI alviiiin( *︾▽︾)""hegerhurewefojiqewjj" "0_o Huh alvin?〣 ( ºΔº ) 〣OMGEEE SORRY!!!!" Miku let me go and apologized for what felt like 200 times. After that she left me to the party where I could finally let loose

The party was awesome. Crazy shit happened left and right, people were making out somewhere dancing and for some reason a weirdly amount of people were in a circle in black robes and chanting something? Probably ok tho think it's just a prank. All was great and I was back to being the life of the party, the A in the party I went to go to the bar and order a drink. Same thing I usually order everything are great everything was amazing everything was perfect!

I walk off after getting my drink, I don't really know where i'm going but doesn't it really matter? And that when I saw it. I saw something that I wish I shouldn't have, something that in mere seconds has destroyed this awesome party. I saw Abby and her. Her? My ex, Britney making out. It felt like my entire world shattered. I tried so hard not to think about her and now I see her making out with someone else. Someone that's not me. Someone who I can't even be mad at because I know that they're probably not even a bad person. They stopped making out and just stared into eachothers eyes and I think that, that was the moment when I fully realized that this was real. The moment you watched them stare at each other you knew that they really loved each other. Maybe it was the small sparkles in their eyes , or their smiles across their faces but yeah that whatever it was that gave it away made my stomach turn.

I walked away from that. I don't think I could have held it in anymore if I stood there any longer. I asked the bartender to give me another drink, I felt so pathetic like 'Common bitch ass of course she moved on! It's been 3 years now!' I couldn't really stop myself from thinking shit like that or to tell the bartender to keep supplying me with drink after drink. It must've been my 6th or 7th drink later when I heard that stupid voice of his. "Wow you don't look so good man!" He said as he sat down. I looked at that voice, it was Elmo. I look away, I'm not gonna trouble him with my shit he seems to have had a good night so far and I don't wanna bring it down. "Look man, just leave me alone." I say, I don't even have the courage to look him in the eye while telling him to fuck off. Elmo stops for a second not saying a thing and then gets up. Huh is he really leaving? He then takes my arm and sort of forces me up from my bar stool. I sort of wobble onto him, he grabs his other arm and holds onto me and leads me to another room.

He closes the door and sits me back down. I look around and it seems like we're in one of the upper levels of the building and no one seems to be up here. I look back to Elmo and he's got a pretty serious face on. I know what he's gonna ask me and I don't really know if I wanna answer.

"Alvin." He started. "What's wrong?" I just kinda stare at the table I'm sitting at. There's a million things wrong but not one of them's coming out. "Alvin, please tell me if something is bothering you." I look at Elmo but not at his face, mostly at his suit or tie."Don't worry there's nothing wrong." I say. I stand to leave but I feel a hand grab me. "Alvin, don't give me that bullshit, clearly there's something wrong." "LOOK I SAID NOTHING'S WRONG OK BECAUSE NOTHING CAN BE WRONG" "Alvin-" "I'M THE FUN ONE! THE COOL ONE! NOTHING CAN EVER BOTHER ME!" "ALVIN-" "BECAUSE I'M JUST SOME STUPID ATTENTION WHORE WHO CAN'T EVEN KEEP THE PEOPLE HE-" "ALVIIIIIIIIIIIIIN!!!!!!"

Silence filled the air. That scream snapped me out of my ranting, enough for me to realize I've been crying. I sit back down, Elmo doesn't say anything, he just puts his arm around me and lets me cry on him. All those years of repressed sadness seem to drip away on his suit as I begin to quiet down. God how long have I been crying here?

Once Elmo sees that I've begun to calm down a bit he removes his arm from me and almost instantly I miss his touch. "Do you wanna talk about it now?" He asked. "Yeah, I needed to get this off my chest sooner or later."

"So me and Britney started to date about 6 years ago, and then one day she decided she wanted to end it. I had been what 3 years ago since that day and for all that time I couldn't get her out of my head. It was pretty hard back when it just happened, everywhere I went there were at least 3 reporters there waiting for me to tell them what happened with me and Britney but the truth is, I don't even know. There were entire days where I just stood next to my phone thinking about if I should call her or not to ask her that one simple question 'Why did you break up with me?'Everytime I ended up just chickening out and not saying a thing and watched her from afar. Soon the press died down and it became easier to just ignore her, not going anywhere she was going and stuff like that. But I still kept thinking of her because of course I did. And that all leads up to this party. I found Abby and her making out. Haha fuck. I think that's probably when I realized how much of a pathetic little shit I am. After all these years I'm still me but she's more than I ever was. She's moved on and I'm still here."

Elmo sat with me in silence, probably thinking about everything I've just said. I don't blame him if that's the case. "Haha you shouldn't talk about yourself like that." Elmo looks at me and gives me a big goofy smile. I smile back "Wow after all that, that's all you can say?" "I'm being serious, you have more talent than you give yourself credit for." "All that talent and people still don't know who I am if I wear a different colored hoodie?" "Well people think that once superman wears glasses he's a completely different guy so you're not alone there." I let out a chuckle hearing that. We sit in a comfortable silence before I hear Elmo start to talk. "Hey Alvin, listen to me, do you want to go back to the party? You can say no if you don't want to. I'll understand and stay by your side for as long as you want whichever you choose."

I thought over my options, going back there would mean possibly having to see them again. But hearing him say he'll stay by my side is giving me the confidence to go out and have fun again. "You know I wasn't lying when I said I loved attention." I said, giving Elmo a smirk. He shyly looked away before getting back up again and saying, "Well come on then let's go!"

We walked down and began to do some dumb shit but it was fun dumb shit. Dance battles where everyone's favorite seeing dogshit dancers go up against eachother was almost as good as doing drugs. We also snorted some cocaine cuz yuh. a few shots of tequila or however many that made us think it was a good idea to dance on the dance floor together. "Haha ur red" i said "fuc u urrrrr a rat" Elmo said "butt u wanna know waht u r?" I said. "Huh waht am i?" "ur my beastfriend=]" "O mY GAOWd! Ur my besstfriend tooo!"

I woke up in my bed naked with Elmo right next me the next day.

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