dangerous (berleezy)

eight

𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭?.. a question i've been asking myself recently about everything. do i really know what i want to do with my life? am i actually ready to grow up? do i have a crush on Berlin? does he like me back?

"Nova? you good?" he asks waving his hand in front of my face.

"yes? sorry, you were saying?" i look at him.

i didn't even realize i zoned out, my thoughts are eating me alive.

"i was asking you about your records, how many do you have?" he laughs.

"oh i don't know- more than i can count on my fingers" i laugh.

"can i look through them?"

"yeah go for it" i smile, watching him go through each one.

we were in my room just hanging out, his mom wasn't home so my mom invited him over.

"your collection is so cool and diverse" he says looking over at me.

"thank you" i laugh.

he picks one he likes and starts playing it before going to my bed, laying down beside me.

"this is a good one" i say moving my head to the beat.

"Novie you'll never guess what i got" Ryder starts before he gasps.

"you have a boy in your room?" he adds in shock.

we laugh as Berlin waves at him.

"yes Ryder, i have a boy in my room. now tell me what you got"

"look! my friend gave me this cool poster for my room" he says running over and holding it up.

"wowwww how lucky are you? where you gonna put it?" i smile as his excitement.

"i'm not sure but probably above my bed"

"that's sick, do you need help putting it up?" i ask.

"yeah if you don't mind" he grins.

i look over at Berlin since he's the tallest, i mean i'm 5'6 so average height but he could probably do it easiest "would you mind?"

"not at all" he says getting up.

we follow Ryder to his room and Berlin helps him hang it on the wall.

"thank you it looks so cool!" Ryder says very happy with how it looks.

"anytime" Berlin smiles at him.

"mom said i have to clean my room so out you both go please" Ryder says.

we both laugh and go back to my room, laying down like we were.

"he's adorable"

"he is but don't let him hear you say that because he swears his one chest hair makes him a man" i laugh.

"it does, trust"

"oh my- not you too" i shake my head.

"so Novie huh? that shit was cute" he laughs.

"you caught that huh?" i side eye him trying not to smile.

"i did, makes me wanna give you a nickname but i don't know what" he looks at me.

"whatever your heart desires" i say readjusting to get comfy.

"that's a lot of freedom you're giving me" he laughs.

"babygirl good with you?" he looks at me for validation but i can't help but smile.

"yeah that's fine" i say smiling ear to ear.

𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓃𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉

"hey Berlin, your mom and i are going out tonight so you're more than welcome to stay here until we come back" my mother smiles.

"okay cool thank you" he smiles at her.

"what about dad? he's not gonna like that" i look at her confused.

"honey, he left after an argument earlier. i don't think he's coming back.."

"he did what? no goodbye? what about Ryder? does he know?" i ask concerned more for my brother than myself.

"he knows, he told Ryder bye.. i'm so sorry Nova"

i stand there in disbelief that he would just act like i didn't exist. what did i do wrong?

all i did was blink and a tear starts falling down my face, i didn't even realize i was crying. my mom came over and hugged me tightly before going to her room to get ready so she wasn't late.

Berlin walks over and engulfs me in a warm hug, wrapping his arms around me.

"i'm okay"

"i can tell you're not, it's okay to not be" he starts rubbing my back for comfort.

we stay like this for a while, my mom left and Ryder was still in his room.

"we can go back to my room if you want" i say.

he nods and that's what we do, he lays on my bed while i go to my closet to change into pajamas.

i throw on some white shorts and a harley davidson crewneck before heading to my brothers room to check on him, he was asleep.

walking back into my room and laying beside Berlin, i hand him the remote "you can put whatever you want on"

"alright" he grabs it and puts some random movie on.

we watch the movie and gradually get closer to one another, he puts his arm out for me to rest my head on it and i do.

yeah.. i think they are right. i am falling for him.

A/N:
this was her pajamas for context

ℋℴ𝓅ℯ 𝓎ℴ𝓊 ℯ𝓃𝒿ℴ𝓎ℯ𝒹 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓅𝓉ℯ𝓇