What Drives You Is Pain

Chapter 4

I sat on the cliffs that jutted over the water that will soon be my deathbed.
I began to climb down the same route as the time of the accident remembering what rocks to step on and which ones not to. Once I get to the shortest ledge I look down. I take a breathe and jump off the cliff into the ice cold water.

At first I'm filled with amazement and then I'm hit with the icy cold sensation of the water. My breathe is knocked out of me even though I expected it.

For a minute I wonder if today was really a good day to die but then again it's better to die today than in another year.

I began to smile as I float to the bottom my hair whipping all around me in spirals. My eyes are starting to hurt from the salty water but it doesn't faze me. My knees hit the sand before my feet. My knees are immediately gashed open from the sharp shell and rocks. The gashes on my knees start to sting from the salt water going into the cuts.

Once I can lay down on the soft sand, I do. The water is threatening to bring me up to the surface because of the air in my lungs. I let out as much air out of my lungs as possible so the process can go faster. I don't cry now. Then I didn't want to die not until I experienced death itself but know I wish death would come sooner.

I won't miss anyone not Lauren, not Ryan, not my mom, not even Mr.Kay. As I settle on the sand for death I began to feel the familiar pain that starts at my chest and spread to the rest of my body. My vision begins to blur just as I remember it and then I am hit with something both luxurious and amazing.

PEACE

I can feel it, I'm drifting off not fast but slow. I want to savor the peace I have now, for fear that this peace will not be there when I die.

I hear a scream but it sounds faded or far away. I couldn't tell if it was a girl or boy scream but it didn't matter. My thoughts got mashed up coming all at once and then they stopped and I no long thought. Even if I wanted to think, which I don't, I couldn't. My feet began to go numb, then my hands. The numbness began to spread up my arms and legs. Finally my torso numbed. My head never numbed and I was struck with a splitting headache, but the peace overwhelmed the headache and I felt it no more.

I don't know what happened but suddenly hands were gripping my arms and the numbness was gone. Then they were pulling me up to the surface. I panicked I didn't come all this way to be stopped from dying, again.

As much as I wanted to push and pound on the person, I couldn't, my body wouldn't work. I hear voices I couldn't really tell who they belonged to but I could tell they were in a worry tone.

I could feel myself being lifted up and put on something soft almost like a bed. The object I was laying on and me were then lifted and steadied again as if being put back down on solid ground, again.

Then I hear a bang that sounded something like doors closing and I heard someone beside me say "I'm with you darling. Don't be afraid."
This voice I could make out, it sounded like a women's.

Then, as if thinking to hard made my brain turn off, everything went black.

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A/N

I would like to give recognition and thanks to my dear friend, Hayley, for editing my chapters.

As always so feedback is appreciated
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