OMEGA (Kaisoo)

Chapter 38

Recapititap:

- sojoon busted ks training Jennie (=tension)
- school field trip time (Cy, jay, jg and Ks went)
- kaisoo had an eyef*** session by the waterfalls but the teachers cockblocked
- during a game ks was forced to tell a "disgusting story" and disturbed everyone again
- ks had a panic attack in the kaisoo tent
- jg heard ks racing heart and rushed to his rescue, calming him with some more eyef***
- next day on the hike ks was stopped by a pimple (omega girl) who rediculed his story
- they fell behind and got attacked
- ks woke up heavily injured and hanging on a treetrunk in one of earths buttcracks
(Pimple is there too but not as injured)
- there are rude bears beneath them
- thinking he and pimple might die, ks utters jgs name
- jg spideysenses tingle and he hears the "call"
- stubborn ks ends up falling to the bears with pimple before jg can help them
- jg jumps after and scares the bears off.
- ks passes out from blood loss

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Despite always running and fighting for his life, kyungsoo never really wasted much time thinking about his death and what it was inevitably going to be like, what would finally cause it.

He'd considerd it before, being the one to finish the job like he heard and seen many other doing but he never could bring himself to make that choice. It was always something else that outweight that option, an opening or a slip up of the enemy and even kyungsoos pride itself.

Because if he thought of death, he cared more for the reason than the way of how to go.
He was determined, no stuckup arrogant alpha or beta was going to get the satisfaction of killing him. The thought of it made him sick.

Now, it was different however.
He had more time to think of living and dying and he had more than survival to consider now, other struggles he'd never had before.
There were things about being alive that he wasnt willing to let go of.
Like the taste of food and the feeling of sleeping under the covers on a cold night. The assurance that he wasnt going to get jumped or hurt in the house he lived in. Knowing his alpha was willing to step in front of him. Or at least used to be.

Kyungsoo should be angry at his alpha, he should defend himself and stand his ground like he used to because he knew he was right.
But still, he couldnt help and hate the feeling the memory of alpha sojoons angered eyes caused him and he couldnt help and think of the alphas kind eyes instead. The warmth and comfort in them and the satisfaction kyungsoo felt whenever the older smiled or assured him of things he wasnt sure about.
Kyungsoo wasnt ready to let it like this, he didnt want to let go of this pack.

Of the frustration while training jennie or enduring jays horrible jokes and useless words. Chanyeols overly concerned and know it all comments, eujin and her carefree attitude that was somehow satisfying to witness, similar to jongin but jongin wasnt carefree. The beta was scarred and he understood him in a way no one had before, there was an unspoken link between them kyungsoo hasnt figured out yet. Sometimes at night the omega would struggle through a nightmare and jongin would just be there, not speaking a word and not asking questions. Instead the beta understood and somehow kyungsoo felt as if the taller understood him and his needs better than he did himself because jongin had been where he was. It was a connection kyungsoo grew found of it.

He had different reasons for not wanting to die now and he wanted to stay alive without having to run and fight for it anymore.

Maybe thats what made him weak now and cause him to possibly die because of nothing more than a little fall and a handful of bears.
After everything he went through, it felt like a twisted joke to go like this and he refused to let it be true.

Kyungsoo grimaced with a grunt as he turned his head, letting his eyes flutter open in effort of adjusting to the dark and focusing on his new surroundings.