It's so weird, theres one person i really fell for. I said. Is that weird for you because you never got love from your family? My therapist asked. Oh please mrs.O'Connell. I'm over that shit. I said. Yeah that's why you still want to have appointments. She said. Anyways its not about my family. I said. Is there anything else? She asked. Are they even my family? I asked. They gave you birth, but you can see it the way you want to. She said. Can i go home now? I asked. Nope. She said. Why not? I asked. You're not allowed to. Your sister don't want you to. She said. This stupid bitch. I said. How is school going? She asked. Horrible i want to kill everyone in there. I said. "again?". Yeah they're all fucking annoying. I said. If you say so. She said. If i want to end our sessions now. I said. Oh you want to end them? She asked. No but if i would, am i allowed to? I asked. Yeah. I can't force you to stay. She said with wide open eyes. You good? I asked. We're not here to talk about me. She said. Well, i have nothing to say anymore, also i won't judge you. You know me for 4months now. You should know that. I said. I know Sydney. She said. So. I said. I'm confused for a while now. She said. Yeah? And why's that? I asked. This one person i really need in my life, is probably not even think about me. She said. Does the person knows? I asked. No, she would make fun of me. She said. See, if you're not going to tell her you won't know if she needs you too or doesn't need you. And if she doesn't, fuck it. Life goes on. There are so many people out there you'll find someone who's nicer. I said. Wow. She said. Mrs. O'Connell, i told you i'm good at that. I said. Billie, call me billie. I think its time. She said. So billie, are you okay? I asked. Work is exhausting and i don't think i'll ever be able to make sure you'll be okay after you end all these sessions so. She said. Oh you care about me? I asked. Of course i do. She said. We'll see. I said. Honestly that what you said was beautiful. She said. Thanks. I said. I'll miss our sessions when you're going to leave. She said. Oh please. Theres still a lot of time. You're not going to loose me here soon. I said. Oh yeah? She asked. Yeah. I said. God you're more important to me than you should. She said. Yeah? I asked. She nodded. I dare you if this was a joke you're not going to miss me. I said. It's not a joke. She said. Fine. I said. Sadly our session for today is over now. But i can give you an appointment for tomorrow 2pm. She said. Yeah sure. I said. Great, how long you want to? She asked. I don't care. I said. Okay, i'll see you tomorrow take care of you. She said. You too. I said. She nodded before i closed the door and walked outside where my sister waited for me. Tomorrow 2pm. I said. Tomorrow?? She asked. Yeah. I said. So at my place? She asked. I live at your place idiot. I said. Yeah. She said. I'm gonna take a shower now. I said as we were home. I went upstairs taking a shower and then i changed my clothes. „Syd, come downstairs. Aalyah is here". My sister yelled. So i did. We're in my room. I said. Yeah yeah. She said. "How is the thing with your therapist now?" Aalyah asked. I'm calling her billie now and we have our next session tomorrow. I said. You fell really for her. She said. Yeah i guess i did. I said. I know you won't answer this, but is she falling too? She asked. No, probably not. I said. Sad. She said. Whatever. I said. Do you have her number? She asked. Sure i do, but we only text if i can't go there or she can't. I said. Okay. She nodded. So I'm just here to give you your hoodie back. She said. Thank you. I said. Sure. She said before she left. The next morning, i woke up at 10.
mrs.O'Connell
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"Gracie can you drive me now?" I asked an half hour before i had to be there. Yeah. She said. See you later. She said as we was there. Yeah. I said closing the door. Yeah, that's the person i waited for. Billie said as i walked in. Yeah hello. I said. So i thought about our conversation yesterday. She said. You did? She asked. You helped me a lot. She said. Oh please thats what i do. I said. You're being a bitch mostly. She said. Careful. I said. Are you okay today? She asked. Yes. I said. Good. She said. You? I asked. Yeah. She said. Are you feeling uncomfortable? She asked. I shrugged. Tell me what's going on. She said. Nope you first, why you wanted to see me today? I asked. Because i think you're amazing and i could tell you 100 more things why. She said. Oh yeah? I asked. I mean, look at you. She said. Why you wanted me to come now and not at 2? I asked. I couldn't wait. She said. For what? I asked. You. She said. Billie. I said. Fuck yes you're the person i need in my life and you're the one that makes me wanting to fuck you every time i see you. She said. Wow. I said. Oh god i'm so so sorry what have i done. She said. Hey look at me. I said. So she did. You're okay? I asked. She just kissed me. I-i had to sorry. She said nervous. Shh, its fine don't be sorry angel. I said. I just love you. She said quietly. I know, i love you too. I said. She kissed me once more before her phone rang. Sorry, wait a second. She said. "Hello?" She said answering the phone. I could give you an appointment for tomorrow, today is already full. She said. So at 4? She asked. Okay, bye. She said hanging up. Sorry baby. She said kissing me again. It's fine. I said. Who was on the phone? I asked. I usually can't tell you but it was your best friend. She said. Oh she's seeing you too? I asked. Sometimes. She said. K. I said. But you're the only one for me. She said. Hey, i haven't said anything baby. I said. I know i'm just scared. She said. It's okay love. I said. Am i seeing you tomorrow too? She asked. When? I asked. 9am. She said. When I'm awake. I said. Why don't you stay at mine tonight, honestly i just want to be with you all the time. She said. What do you want my sister to think? I asked. We're not telling her anything. She said. Fine. I said.
