Trigger warning: Self harm (talking)
"Mom I'm leaving". I told my mom getting my glasses. Where you going? She asked. Julie. I said. Okay, when will you be home? She asked. I don't know yet. I said. Okay. She said. Then i left. "He cheated on her". Aalyah said before julie came back in her room. Again? I asked. Yeah. She said. Is anything going on with your lives? Julie asked. Not really. I said. No. Aalyah said. Our lives are boring as hell. Julie said. I know, thats why i'm going home. I said. Because of that? Aalyah asked. No, but my sisters best friend is coming over. I said. The hot or the weird one? Julie asked. It's billie you idiot. I said. You're still crushing at her? Julie asked. Yeah guess i'll be single forever. I said. Have fun with her. Aalyah said laughing. You're a bitch. I said before i left. You're early. My mom said looking at me. Was boring as hell. I said. Oh, billie is in your room. Grace isn't home yet. She said. My room? I asked. Yeah. She said. K. I said. " your hair". Billie said as i walked in my room. Mental breakdown. I said. I like it, red looks good at you. She said. Thanks. I said. Are you still having your horses? She asked. Yeah. I said. Okay. She said. Why? I asked. Just asking. She said. Okay. I said. Why are you wearing a hoodie, its so hot outside. She said. I don't know. I said. Syd, show me your arms. She said. Why? I asked. You did it again, don't lie you can't lie to me. She said. Goddamn what you want to do? Being mad at me won't change it. I said. I'm worried about you. She said. Yeah sure you are. I said. I am, nobody notice anything but i do, because i care about you. She said. I'm just your best friends stupid little sister. I said loudly. What? You're not her stupid little sister. She said. You know what, just leave my room, please. I said. You know why i'm in your room? She asked. Why? Because she's not here. I said. I noticed your not okay. She said. Billie, i don't want to talk about it. I said. She took a deep breath. "You're still not your sisters stupid little sister." She said. I shrugged. I often thought about you. She said. Yeah? I asked. Yeah. She said. Uhm. I said. Why are you so shy now hm? She asked. You're my sisters best friend. I said. And? It's my decision. She said. I shrugged. Syd, why are you scared of her? She asked. I don't know. I said. I love you okay? She asked. Billie, you don't. I said. I do, why do you think that? She asked. I just know you don't. I said. Oh yeah you know. She said. What do you want me to tell her? Oh by the way I'm in love with your best friend? I asked. You don't have to tell her anything yet. She said. You know how she is, i won't be alive if she knows. I said. And you know how i am. She said. Yeah. I said. I won't leave you when she's telling me to do. She said. Yeah? I asked. I love you. I do for almost 2 years now. She said. I love you too. I said quietly. Now come here. She said. So i did. Are you still bleeding? She asked. I shrugged. Sydney baby, never do that ever again. She said. It's not easy. I said. Then get some help. But don't do that. She said. I'm still in therapy. I said. Good. She said. Mhm. I said. You tired? She asked. Nah. Are you? I asked. No. She said. Uhm, can I kiss you? I asked nervously playing with my rings. She nodded before I kissed her. "Billie!" My sister said as she walked in. Hm? She asked. That's my fucking sister, you can't kiss her. Grace said. Why? I love her. You can't tell me what to do. Billie said. I thought you're my best friend. she said. Just because i love her doesn't mean I'm not. Billie said. Fuck you. She said leaving. Billie just looked at me. Hm? I asked. I love you. She said. Love you too. I said before she kissed me again.
