Hi! I figured I'd start with a flashback! And I lied. Sorry for the delay, I have no excuse, I just forgot. Might as well get used to it. Well, on with the chapter. LOL. Oh, and I assumed you already knew, but just in case, the bold is always an a/n.
Anakin tried to shake the feeling. He couldn't bring himself to accept Yoda's advice, so there had to be another alternative. Somehow Anakin knew Obi-Wan wasn't lying. Somehow Anakin knew he wouldn't be able to give up Padmé without doing everything he could to save her. He just knew it would be more difficult than he had anticipated…
Sighing, Anakin walked out of the chamber. He internally debated his options as he walked aimlessly through the Jedi Temple. His comlink began beeping urgently.
"General Skywalker?" Came the sweet voice of Padmé through the comlink.
"Senator Amidala. Hold on one moment." Anakin muttered, moving through the halls to a more isolated location.
"Okay, I'm alone. There's no one listening," Anakin said, glancing around him.
"Ani, are you almost done at the temple?" Padmé asked longingly.
"I think I'm almost done. I just- haven't found what I'm looking for." Padmé sighed.
"Okay, well, come as soon as you can. I miss you." Padmé pleaded.
"I will," Anakin promised.
"I love you. See you soon," Padmé answered.
"I love you too." Anakin said and he ended the conversation. Anakin sighed again, defeated. He couldn't stand the thought of losing Padmé. But- at least he could spend time with her now.
Anakin resolved to go home. He would have to continue his search later. Maybe it was just a dream after all. At least, that's what he hoped.
Anakin ran outside. Scanning the area for his speeder, he quickly jumped in and sped off towards their apartment.
Here's something new.
Padmé's POV
I quickly bounced off the couch and raced to the door when I heard it open. I knew it was Ani, and I wasn't wrong. Ani stood at the door, and he wrapped his arms around my waist and swung me around. I giggled and smiled widely. I loved it when he was home.
"So, how was your day, angel?" Ani asked, once we finally settled down.
"Oh, lots of paperwork, and a small senate meeting. Nothing too stressful today," I assured him. It had ended up being an easier day than I anticipated. I had assumed that there would be some updates on the war, but there wasn't much.
"That's good," Ani answered lazily. We sat down on the couch, and I let my head rest on his shoulder. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder, and I sighed in contentment. Moments like these make me realize how lucky I am to have Anakin, even if our marriage can be difficult sometimes, keeping it hidden and all, we can still be happy.
"What about you?" I asked. He shrugged and I turned my head to look at him. I pursed my lips, but I didn't press on the subject. I knew he'd been on a wild goose chase because of his nightmare last night. It scared me how determined he was to find whatever it was he needed.
"You know, sometimes I feel… lost," Ani confessed.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"I don't know. It's just all so confusing sometimes." He answered. Apparently he wasn't quite as at peace as I was right now. I know being a Jedi must be hard. He's really stressed out. I know just being there for him helps a lot, but I always wish I could do more. I sighed, my contentment escaping me. Ani kissed my forehead, and I felt much better. I gave him a soft smile, and he gladly returned it, but with a more forced kind of smile than I liked, but still pretty genuine.
I brushed off the feeling. There was nothing to worry about…right?Anakin's POV
I wish I could enjoy this moment more. It was nice being home instead of away all the time. It's been hard, and I know it's been far from easy for Padmé, and I hated having to put her through this, I just can't lose her. It's all so confusing. I don't see why moments like these would be forbidden for Jedi. But I've been over this. Being a Jedi means I can't have attachments. But, I just can't. I love Padmé so much. I'm just so lost right now.
"What do you mean?" I heard my angel ask. I must have said that out loud. Great.
"I don't know. It's just all so confusing sometimes." I said, satisfied with my answer. Yet I could sense Padmé wasn't. Oh no. I kissed her forehead to sooth her, and was relieved.
I sighed. Times like these were so stressful.
MINI TIME SKIP TO THAT NIGHT
I hated writing this. I read the script for ROTS, and I was crying. Just saying, I think maybe I deserve a vote for putting myself through this? No?
"PADMÉ!" I screamed. Padmé wasn't there. I could hear her screaming.
"PADMÉ!" I yelled again.
"ANI!" Padmé yelled weakly. Padmé cried out.
"PADMÉ!" I yelled hopelessly.
Fog filled the whole room, and I couldn't see. I kept racing around the building, but Padmé was nowhere to be found.
The dream switched to another place. It was a hospital room, and Padmé was in labor.
"It's a boy." A medical droid calmly announced.
"Don't give up Padmé." A familiar voice whispers. Obi-Wan. But- why is Obi-Wan there? Where am I?
"Luke…" Padmé says weakly. She offers a small, strained smile. Struggling, she touches a baby boy- our son's forehead.
"...and a girl." The medical droid commented.
"Leia…" Padmé said, but she didn't have the energy to hold her.
"You have twins, Padmé. They need you… hang on!" Obi-Wan whispered. Would he just stop? Where am I? I should be the one here. Wait- hold on? Is she dying? Oh please no!
"I can't!" Padmé cried. Yes you can!
"Save your energy."
"Obi-Wan, there's still good in him. I- I know there is!" Good in who? This is so- I can't even comprehend any of this!
Then, Padmé's spirit was gone.
I woke up with a cold sweat overwhelming me. The dream stuck with me, as much as I hoped I would forget it.MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU!
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Fanfiction"QUIET! YOU HAVE A CHOICE. SAVE YOU AND THE UNBORN CHILD BY STAYING WITH ME, OR DIE WITH YOUR HUSBAND AND CHILD BECAUSE OF YOUR CHOICE." Padmé trembled at the thought of losing Ani and the baby. But herself? Would he really? Maybe not then. But now...