Heart Out

Brothers ay

Omg I'm so sorry this is soooo bad , but I just needed to fill in this chapter beofre I got to some good stuff , and I just wanted G interacting with his sibling and Hann about his worries

There's one chapter left then the boys will be together

George's POV

"When can I come see you?", We'd come off of the call a few hours ago as my dad had come home, we'd kept in contact all day though because I didn't want to leave him. I know he's been sat with his mum and brother since and he seems to be doing alright. He told me they all made dinner together and that he'd actually eaten something which is also really good.

Matty: Darlin, you can come whenever you'd like, when do your holidays start ?

I'm currently sat basically hanging out of my window with a joint in my hands, feeling like I just want to hold him. I've been thinking about it since he told me earlier and the more I think about it the more I just need to be there. I've given myself a headache thinking about it which is quite funny really. The joint is helping calm my nerves a little

George : I'm sure they start next week but you've got exams for the next month, I don't want to distract you?

I hate the feelings that I'm having right now, I've never really been a clingy person. When I'm with people I know then maybe I am , but just maybe. With Matty everything is different I don't quite understand what that means. I was never this clingy with Laura and we dated for so long. It makes my head swim, why is this so different to everything I've ever experienced before. Maybe this is what other people feel when there in love, you know how they describe it in this corny romance movies. This is maybe how Adam felt with Carly. I should ask him.

I pull up Adam's contact and press the call button waiting fidgeting with my lighter while I wait for him to pick up

Adam: Hiya G , you alright ?
George: Alright Hann, yeh I'm alright, I just really need to talk to you about something
Adam:  What's up G?
George : I need to ask you something but promise you won't take the piss okay?
Adam: When do I ever?
George: Never, but like I'd understand if you did with what I'm about to ask you
Adam: Just ask me G
George: Alright fine , you know before you got with Carlz how did you feel , like how did you know you liked her.
Adam: I don't know , I just liked her didn't I , like she was just always around and she made me happy I suppose
George: Did you ever feel like you wanted to be with her like all the time and just like I don't know , like feel emotional when she was upset or something even though wasn't your place too.
Adam: G I love you bro but I really don't know what your getting at, what are you trying to ask me?
George: Arghhh fuck

I wrack my hands through my hair and my nails scrape against my skull as I lightly pull on my roots like I'm trying to pull my thoughts from my brain

George: I'm just trying to understand what's going on in my head, I really really like Matty and I feel like I'm being so clingy and annoying and too much but ....I don't know if it's because I'm overthinking it because I like him or if it's because I just wish I could help him.

Adam: Why is being clingy a bad thing , and why is wanting to help him a bad thing?
George : I just don't want to be too much Ad !
Adam: Has the lad said your being too much ? Cuz if he hasn't then I'm sure everything is fine
George: No he hasn't said anything about being annoyed at me or anything but ....that doesn't mean he isn't , I just really like him ..... and like what if I get to much and when he's upset or something and it messes things up.
Adam: G, please trust me on this , I'm sure your doing an amazing job, okay!?
George: I'm trying to trust you, my heads just all over the place right now Hann, that's all
Adam: Give yourself a break man !,
George : I'll really try , but uh yeh I'm just gunna go now I've got stuff to do and gotta look after Gracey and Lucie , Thanks man , I know I'm being difficult but thank you!!
Adam: It's alright G , love ya man

"Geo !!!!!" Little Gracie came barging into my room just as I was finishing the call with Adam "there's a spider in the bathroom Geo, fix it !!!", I then say a quick goodbye to Adam again before hanging up and pick Gracey up holding her on my waist "there's a Spider , is there ?"

"Yeh it's so big, it's like this big", she indicates the size by stretching her arms out.

"Wow that is gigantic ay?" , I can just see her nodding with her little blonde ringlets bouncing. And she's clinging to me as we make our way to the bathroom. "Can you show me where it is Gracey?"

"No no no , I don't want to see it again, it's just in there", I let Gracey climb down from me as she stands at the bathroom door pointing at where she saw the creature "right there Geo"

After finding the perpetrator and setting it free outside , obviously because you can't kill it , no matter how scared you are of the things you can't kill them according to little Gracey "it's just mean to kill them" , even though she didn't want to see it skittering around she had to check the tissue in my hand for evidence that I "hadn't crushed it with my tree trunk hands"

Lucie had joined us at this point coming to see what all the commotion was about "what are you guys up too" , stood at the front door, homework in hand , looking like the proper little Miss that she is. "Is that a Spider ?"

"Yeah, Gracey was scared so I'm just setting it free"

"Why are you scared of it Gracey , it's just an insect , even though your just little you're bigger than it is so it's going to be more scared of you than you are of it"

"When did you get so smart ay, your both so grown up , when did that happen"

"I'm 7 George , I'm a big girl now , but Gracey is only 5 she's not a grown up yet", Lucie is genuinely so grown up and would literally do everything by herself if she could , so grown up , short brown hair that used to be likely Graceys blonde ringlets. Blue eyes which is weird because we all have brown eyes. Shes even quite tall for her age, nearly tallest in her class. She's so independent, knows so much about everything and anything. Where as Gracey just a little bundle of clingy and joyous giggles ; she looks up to me big time not the blow my own whistle but she wants to be just like me. There both so damn intelligent though.

"That's very true Luce , let's get back inside yeh , Gracey you can watch TV and I'm going to help Luce with her homework okay?"

"Oki Geo"

"George I don't need help, it's just reading"

I hurdle them back inside after closing the door, I set up CBeebies on the TV for Gracey and pull Lucie up in my lap as we sit down, she does thrash around a little trying to get me off her but she settles "I know it's just reading Luce, but I want to see how good you can read it can you do that for me?"

"You know I can George"