"Here's to the kids who try their hardest to be good enough for everyone, who spend hours reading random quotes to find the right one, who listen to the same song dozens of times because the lyrics means a lot and are relatable, who deserve so much...
Hey Zee, do you remember me? Well yeah we're friends… classmates... But what I'm asking is if you actually remember me?
It's been a while since we last talked huh? More than a year to be precise. Okay , I'll get to the point. I've always wanted to tell you something, but I never got the courage. Always hesitating and wondering what you might think. But I can't bear it any longer so I'm writing this letter to you.
We used to be so close. I don't know what happened , the situation changed and little by little we started to drift apart until we became like strangers. Sometimes I still think back to our past memories. When we used to whisper in between classes and share news. When you used to stare at me with those puppy eyes until I finally caved in and helped you with your studies. I always considered you as one of my best friends but now I realize that maybe the feeling wasn't mutual.
You knew all my secrets , you knew how much I used to get hurt over those other ex-friends of mine. You knew all about how I felt about them . I used to come and talk to you whenever they made me feel sad and lonely. So I never thought that one day something like this could happen. I never thought you would betray me like this. You left me behind and became best friends with the people who used to be my earlier close friends.
I lost my best friend to my ex best friends. I don't know if you guys did these intentionally or not but the point is at the end of the day, I'm the one who's still hurting. The biggest problem is that I still care but you don't. I wish I could just forget and not think about you but your thoughts are always running through my mind. It hurts like hell when I see you all having fun together because once I used to be part of that . I was there but then I wasn't,you guys never really cared.
You used to say I was like your sister...but what happened now?
Little do you guys know how much I think about you and shed tears every night. My heart wrenches in pain whenever I think about what you did. How you all replaced me so easily like I never mattered . Every single lyric of those sad songs reminds me of you and there's a sinking feeling in my heart.
Earlier we could stay up till 4am talking about everything and nothing but now I hesitate to send a single 'hey'. Why should I be the one to always talk to you first?
Sometimes I reread our texts and laugh at those conversations. But then as the memories flash by so comes the never ending tears.
I feel like I was used by you. Now you have left me and became so close with them. The saddest thing is I still wonder what made the situation turn out like this? Why did we drift apart? What did I do wrong? What was the freaking reason?!
Even now I dropped small hints to let you know how I feel but you just don't get how much it kills me to see you be so close with all those people who had constantly hurt me in the past. Even after knowing all these, now you are doing the exact same damn thing!
We are neither friends nor enemies, just strangers with memories.
I just wish you guys could feel even an ounce of the pain you made me go through, but y'all don't even realize that you've hurt me.
So to my ex-best friend who once knew me the best, nowadays I don't even know a single thing about you. You've completely changed from the person I once used to know.
But I'm glad all these happened because now I know how it feels to be hurt. I know not to trust or become close with anyone because in the end they'll just leave. Thank you for everything, for giving me motivation to write deep ,sad and vengeful stuff about everything you did.
I wish I could completely hate you but sadly a part of me still cares. This hurts like hell but one day I will get over it but right now I can't see anything through these tears.
There were so many memories we didn't get to make , so many secrets left unshared. Tell me how this is over , the book of you and I? You've cut me out of your life and closed away our memories, leaving the book unfinished. There's so many chapters that we didn't get to write.
But now as I'm older I know that God made all these happen for a reason. You taught me many lessons and now your chapter in my life is over. You left without a reason because God removed you from my life as you've already served your purpose and I don't need you anymore. Greater things are in store for me and sadly you're not a part of it. To be honest I still miss you but I know that you're the one who actually lost someone who would have always cared for and loved you. So it's your loss and not mine. I'm glad God saved me from fake extras like you who shouldn't be worth a care. All the best and may you get whatever you deserve.
Sincerely ,... Someone who used to deeply care about you.
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To my ex best friend- Tate McRae
The book of you and I - Alec Benjamin
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I'm that friend The one Who walks three steps behind Because the sidewalk's not wide enough and my friends talk on by Never included in the conversation
I'm the king of my plane of existence I guess I'm a ghost Alone And my friends and I aren't close Guess I'm a burden Cause I think I'm a burden So I don't let my feelings show
They forgot when it was my birthday But at least the tears on my cake were gourmet
By madsteaparty
My addition -
Try to fit in but my whispers are ignored Never loud enough to make my thoughts heard Or is the ignorance all intentional ?
Is it a clue or I'm just feeling blue
All the cool kids did their own thing I was on the outside always looking in I was there but I wasn't They never really cared if I wasn't
Author's Note
This was an entry written for a competition. As seen by the date mentioned in the beginning, it was written in the beginning of 2021 (:
Now circumstances are different and I'm more or less happy but I just wanted to upload this here as safekeeping.
Have any of you had any relatable incidents? If so, *hugs*
