"Here's to the kids who try their hardest to be good enough for everyone, who spend hours reading random quotes to find the right one, who listen to the same song dozens of times because the lyrics means a lot and are relatable, who deserve so much...
One moment you're fine and laughing. The next moment, something comes crashing down and you're so dam depressed. Without any valid reason. Cuz of you're overthinking.
Maybe it's because of all the academic pressure. You do good so people have all these expectations . All the due times of assignments are like ticking bombs. Lately nothing is making sense .
But the storm brewing inside. The feeling when it becomes hard to breathe and you go in the bathroom to let out all the tears that were threatening to spill from your eyes filled to the brim with salty water.
And then come out like nothing happened.
But your soul feels crushed , lonely and empty.
You feel so lonely , without any friends . There are 'friends' but only when they need something from you. You're always there for others but no one is there for you...
Like a candle burning myself to give light to others.
Parents are like ' why are you sad? There's no reason to be sad?'
Or 'oh always on this dam electronics'
But these dam electronic are the ones helping you to cope a bit more in this Messed up world.
In the end all these marks etc don't even matter. I've become so numb I can't feel you there . I'm tired of what you're expecting of me , feeling so faithless lost under the surface... Feeling like I don't deserve any love or happiness . Feeling worthless...
Because no one understands! Anything! The storm of EMOTIONS in my mind , killing me slowly.
No one is there for me. Parents are not seeing those lonely eyes or the fake smiles.
A little hug could help but no... Can't even blame them cuz I know they are busy working hard for us.
I know they do love me but sometimes it needs to be shown .
They think they know me so well but nah! I've become so dam numb and tired...
My mouth says I'm ok My fingers text I'm fine but My heart screams help! I'm broken
I'm tired of Everyone leaving me behind after sometime. I'm tired of caring and missing others when they don't even think about me.
They don't know how I love deeply to my bones and care about the tiniest things.
I lost , I lost , I lost control again . always do the same and I'm to blame I lost control again. I don't know who I am.
I wonder if I'm being real , should I speak my mind or should I filter how I feel.
I have scars but they can't be seen. Because they are not on my wrists or any physical ones.
They are inside , hidden deep within, killing me slowly and affecting me mentally. But I still hold on ...
Tired of people having all these different opinions about me ...
I'm a mess...
At that moment when it feels... Who cares if one more light goes out in the sky of a million stars....
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I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface Don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) I've become so numb, I can't feel you there Become so tired, so much more aware I'm becoming this, all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me? Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control 'Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) And every second I waste is more than I can take I've become so numb, I can't feel you there Become so tired, so much more aware I'm becoming this, all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you And I know I may end up failing too But I know you were just like me with someone disappointed in you I've become so numb, I can't feel you there Become so tired, so much more aware I'm becoming this, all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you
Numb- Linkin Park
Others songs lyrics in this part:- Lost control- Alan Walker Wonder - Shawn mendes You don't even know me - Faouzia In the end - Linkin Park One more light- Linkin Park
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