Sweet Bully- Minsung

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MINHO POV

I fucked up. Its all my fault. Why did I even drink that much at the party? Its my fault and I have no idea how to make it good again. I tried everything. I guess its time to give up. But I don't wanna. Jisung hates me but I love him, I don't want to give up our relationship. At least the relationship we had.

I could feel the tears falling down my cheeks. I don't know how much I cried since the the party, but there were always less tears coming out, my eyes getting dryer.

Jisung really hates me. He hates me. What if I try to do better? Get more skinny and maybe do some make up to try to look better? He'd like that, right? Yes, everyone likes skinny people.

What if he is seeing someone else already? What if he does want me to leave him alone? Should I stay at Felix' house for a little while? No, I bothered him enough. Jeongin? He's still my lovely baby he shouldn't get involved in this. Seungmin? No, he just got together with Chan they should have their own time.

Then where should I go? Back ..home?
Should I call my mother and ask? I don't want to, I'm scared. But Jisung... he doesn't want me here anymore

I'm just bothering him.

I hesitated before taking my phone out. It was late but I knew my mom would be awake. I quickly wiped off my tears before calling her.

"Hello?"
"Mom?"
"Oh it's you. What did you want? Didn't I tell you to never call me?"
"Yes, yes I'm sorry. But I need help, please."
There was silence for a few seconds before she answered.
"Where do you need help?"
"Can I come home for a few days please?  I have no where to stay. Please mother.." Now the tears where falling down again. I was desperate.
"Why? Don't you have your ridiculous boyfriends house to stay at? Or did he break up with your ugly ass?"
I sniffled as quiet as I could.
"Mother please, I'm begging you. Just a few days."
I heard a heavy sigh from her.
"Fine but only because your father went to a business trip this morning for a month. You can stay here but if you only bother me just once then I will-"
"That won't happen, Mother. Thank you so much."

Then she hang up the phone. I knew it wasn't a good idea but I had to. For Jisung. So I packed the needed clothes for the next few days before getting on my bed. I smiled slightly, now Jisung could have his peace. With that thought I slowly fell asleep.

JISUNG POV

The sun shining through the curtains woke me up from my peaceful sleep. I sat up and rubbed my eyes before looking to the other side of the bed. Oh yea he isn't here with me anymore. I was used to see Minho next to me when I woke up so it kinda became a habit to look to my side to see him sleeping.

I got up to the bathroom and did my needing before going down to the kitchen to eat. Usually Minho would be awake and be ready with breakfast- smiling at me brightly and apologizing even more for what he did. I kinda feel guilty. But the rage got onto me and I couldn't think of something else. I knew it was toxic.

I furrowed my eyebrows when I only could see the very delicious looking breakfast with a note on its side. Minho wasn't here. I usually get out of the house the second I get out of my room to not face Minho but he wasn't here so I could eat his breakfast for once.

I sat down and took a bite and damn. It was so delicious, I could eat it for the rest of my life. Just when I finished I remembered that there was a note beside it. I took and read it.

Dear Jisung,
Since you blocked me on everything I could only leave you this note to inform you that I will be gone for a few days. I decided to give you room and leave you alone since I'm sure that I'm just bothering you. And yet again, I seriously am so so sorry Ji, I really thought the person I kissed was you. I'm really sorry and it's totally okay if you won't forgive me and hate me now. I hate myself for it too. Maybe you won't even bother to read this letter but that doesn't matter now.
If you need anything or someone to talk please know that I am still here and waiting for you.
I love you. Please never forget that.