Thin Line In Between

Chapter 30

"Godt, please open the door na. It's me, Cop. I'm here. I'm sorry I left. I'm sorry this happened while I was away. But I'm here now. Please, open the door, Godt. Let me be there with you. Don't shut me out, don't shut us out. It's only me for now, so you don't have to worry. I'm alone and I'm really worried about you."

Copter keeps on begging. Once Bas had followed Tee and his friends leaving the house, Copter had knocking on the door right away, trying to persuade Godt to open the door. It's been 15 minutes, and Godt was still stubborn. Copter was turning around, leaning on the door, then sliding down the floor, sitting with his right legs folded, and his right hand resting on it. His face looking straight with his head leaning on the door behind him.

"I know I wasn't supposed to say this now, when you were hurt because of what your parents did, but, babe..." Copter was laughing a little hearing himself calling Godt, babe.

"It felt weird, but it felt good at the same time, calling you, babe." Copter was composed himself back to the little serious talk he was intended before.

"But what I was trying to say is, Godt, I've been thinking a lot about us. About you, about Bas. Since the day you were telling me about how you feel. Well, mostly about you. I get to realize every single thing you did for me since the day we've been friends. Every single thing, Godt. Even when you were already a boyfriend to Bas, you never makes me feel left behind. Even when I already with Tee, you were always care and alert of how I feel. You were always there with me, and I get used to it to the point of taking it for granted. Living without you in only these few days, I felt like I lost more than half of myself. It felt worse, and I really missed you, Godt, and Bas too."

It was quiet for a moment after Copter finished his words. When Copter started to think that maybe Godt wasn't ready facing anyone else, suddenly he was falling back when the door open, forcing him to support himself with his left hand before he was standing up to see Godt was already walking back into his room.

"Godt......" Copter's calling him making his step halted, he was standing there backfacing Copter for a while, before he turned around, pulling Copter in his hugs, so hard that Copter felt it was hard to breathe, but he was able to calm himself down both from the shock and the hard hugs.

Godt was crying on his shoulder, and Copter was hugging him back while rubbing his back trying to calm his best friend he loves so much, he never realize before. He felt happy having him in his arms, he felt relieved Godt was able to let go his feelings and he let Godt leaning on him. He was able to hold his ground even though Godt had put his weight on him. He will holding it out for as long as Godt need it. He can do this.

Xxx

Godt was lying on Copter's lap, trying to get asleep. Since the day he was abandoned by his father, he couldn't sleep properly, and he couldn't rest his mind. Whenever he close his eyes, falling asleep, it couldn't even hold more than 10 minutes when the dreams, or actually nightmare wakes him up again. He keeps on sending voice messages to Copter every time he was awaken by the nightmare hoping Copter would heard him.

Godt was always dreaming of having a common family, that loves each other. A father who getting angry at him for being a bad child, or hitting others, a mother that would cook for his family, and he get to stole the food at the table and being angry at by his mother, and a brother he could fight for almost everything, but at the same time could be someone who could watch your back when needed.

But that dreams was far more than the truth he lives in. His father always looking at him in a way of seeing an enemy instead of his own son. His mother, even though she was the one who delivered him into this world, but never once in his life, as long as he could remember, she would come and console him every time his father beaten him, and instead, she had gone and console his dad instead of him.

His brother? No, it was his half-brother. His mother married to his father with a son, after he lost his late wife in an accident. That guy was no difference with his father, who hated his existence, and whenever he talked, it was all about money and inheritance, and the company. He only saw Godt as his competition for the inheritance instead of a brother. And the reason he was giving up the inheritance was because he overheard his father declared face on that he will never let Godt succeed his company and no matter what, he will give everything to his brother. That's why he choose to be a doctor instead.

Still, he never lose hope. He was always hoping for his family to change one day, but what happened had given him a big blow. A tiny hope that he had in his heart had been shoved away in a single word. Disown. And in a split second, he has no family, and that he was alone.

"Hey, babe, you were not alone. No matter what, you will have Bas on your side. And if you want, you could have me too."

Hearing Copter, Godt had turned around looking up at him, who was looking at him with his brown orbs. His beautiful eyes he loves, and somehow he missed the dimple smile that could brighten his day no matter how hard it was. Slowly, he moves his hand, heading to Copter's cheek, and once the hand get to touch the smooth skin of Copter's face, Copter was closing his eyes, and he could felt how warm the hand is, and he loves it.

"What makes you think I don't want you by my side, Cop? What makes you leaving?" Godt was asking making Copter opening his eyes and was looking down at Godt once again.

"I was afraid, maybe. You were cold to me, you were avoiding me, and I felt neglected. I was afraid to face you who hates me, and I didn't want to let the hate grew much more than it already was. I screwed up, and I hurt you. It was all my fault. I'm sorry I hurt you and............hmmph."

Copter's words had been shushed by the sudden kissed of Godt making Copter leaning on the headboard of the bed while Godt was now hovering over him with the desperate kissed he thrown to Copter. Though he was shocked a little, but Copter was able to response to the kiss seconds later. When the need of air struck their lung, Godt had stopped the kiss and was leaning his forehead on Copter's forehead.

"I've been loving you since the first time you came and talk to me, and not even a second in my life wishing you to be away from me. I loves you, Cop. I need you, and I always want you to be by my side. Will you stay by my side forever? Can I have both of you by my side?"

With their forehead still touching with each other, Copter was looking deep into the dark orbs of Godt who was holding his face with both of his hands.

"You can have me, all of me, I loves you so much, Godt. I'm sorry I never realized it before, but I was glad I realized it now. You can have both of us as your family, Godt. I'll make sure that you don't need anyone else, but us, as your family. If they abandoned you, just let them be. You will always had me and Bas. And we both loves you so much."

Godt was attacking Copter's lips once again after hearing the 'L' words Copter had thrown on his face, where the moment he had dreams for so long, which at most of the times, it was like an impossible dreams. But now that Copter is already here, in his arms, he will never let go. Never.

The kiss gets heated and more compassionate every second passed, and not long, their cloth had leaving their body, and the spark of the first loves had bloomed, that was so bright it hurts the eye.

End of Chapter 30