We end up shopping after lunch. Then she takes me home. She looks at me for a moment before speaking as if choosing her words carefully.
"Have you thought about speed dating? Or a dating sight? Just putting one up. Or we can take a trip and visit your parents."
My parents have no idea what's been going on in my life the last few months. We aren't estranged but life is busy.
"School." I state.
"Ends this week. Come on. It could be fun. Emma will be home too." She smiles.
"Okay." I nod. I know she's trying to help so I might as well let her. She's been my rock through everything.
"I'll pick you guys up Saturday so Emma can rest when she gets back Friday morning. This will be great. You'll see." She smiles as I get out of the rover.
I hope she's right. A vacation could be a good thing. Who knows the last time we've had one. And I'm looking forward to seeing Emma for the summer. Now I just have to rearrange it with Alec.
Sighing I unlock my door and see my son pacing the living room.
"Hey." I say setting my keys down.
"You didn't leave a note." He accuses. I see worry in his eyes.
"I forgot I had lunch plans with Hanna. I'm so sorry I didn't mean to worry you sweetie. And I spoke to Emma."
"You did?" He asks skeptically.
"I did and we're planning a trip to see nan and pop this weekend. Is that okay?"
"Dad cancelled. Again." He says and I see the hurt and anger in his eyes. It hurts my heart.
"Well it's settled. A vacation." I say hugging him tightly.
"Okay." He sighs pulling away and heading to the kitchen.
I nod to myself and follow him into the kitchen where pizza is sitting on the counter. We eat in silence. His thoughts seeming as heavy as mine are lately.
My stomach churns as I put dinner away an hour later. I haven't spoken to Alec since the night before I left him. The kids are old enough to communicate with him. I know it seems petty but it's hard to hear his voice even still.
Swallowing my pride I dial and sit outside.
"Hello?" It's loud wherever he is.
"I'm taking Reid on a vacation this weekend. We won't be around. I just wanted you to know." I state evenly.
"Are you coming back?" I pause and he clarifies. "From vacation I mean."
"Yes. I'll know more when we get there." Then I hang up. Sitting back I close my eyes. While I have my reasons for never reaching out I wonder what his were. Was it that easy to claim defeat after so long together? We built a life. Had children.
Why doesn't he seem to care? When did he stop? Most importantly why can't I stop?
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Remembering Us
Romance"I blame the fairytales." I tell him sipping my margarita. "The fairytales?" He asks me. "Yes. The fairytales we're read as children. About the damsel in distress and the white knight on his obedient steed." Now he's looking at me like I'm nuts. M...
