Eva's Sins.

XXXIII

"Sometimes is better to be a quiet mouse and not the yelling cat"

  "It's still quiet," Sophie thought while staring through the window at the nature of May that was so beautifully illuminated by the dusk sunshine, making it to be similar to a multicolored green crystal.

  But this beauty wasn't warming Sophie's soul. She felt so cold inside, so empty and nothing could fill this void inside her, because there it was already the realm of her hatred and of thoughts of getting revenge of those who killed Edward and also of the woman who made her feel vulnerable and who trampled her honor, as Brian's wife.

  "She must die," Sophie told Marianne after she found out that Brian is meeting someone and that she has a rival, but her elder friend was wiser than Sophie was and while cunningly smiling, Marianne told her friend: "why kill someone to get revenge? Better find out her weaknesses and use it in your favor."

  "I don't think that I'm capable of such sacrifice, Marianne. I hate her too much to accept her near me and I'm not you to accept the presence of my husband's mistress around me."

  "But you have to if you want to be the one honored in the end, Sophie. Or what, do you prefer others to blame you for hurting an innocent girl, who still learns about life, and to accept her instead? She's younger and charming, while you have so many enemies already and this can be a trump card in her favor."

  "I'm not that weak and you know this. If I want someone dead, I'll have this satisfaction."

  "No, you won't have it. Because you don't have Brian's acceptance and this is something that you won't ever have."

  "Then, what do you suggest?"

  "Kill Brian and this way you will have a free path to destroy your enemy, but even so, I doubt you will succeed. Remember that the girl got her back for the rest of her life. Being a "Red Ant" gives her a privilege you won't have ever. Only if you don't change your mind and enter the bed of someone influential in this society."

  "I won't ever fall so down, Marianne. I'm not ... such a person."

  "Then use your brain and let others use their body for you. Be the quiet mouse who succeeded in everything, then the cat who is skillful to sneak around, but who is never able to catch the mouse."

  "And to do this, what should I do? Be someone's mistress?"

  "No. As I said, let others use their bodies and you take advantage of this. If that girl prefers to be Brian's mistress, let her be and wait. Men are weak. He will soon find another "doll" to play with and then you can "get" the other playing your own music. It won't be hard for her to enter someone else's bed and to bring you satisfaction and success, while she thinks that she is getting revenge on her ex."

  "I'm not that sure that Brian and that girl will end their relationship soon. Remember that they are expecting a baby."

  "A child your husband doesn't know about and this means something: that baby isn't his, because if he was, the girl would have taken advantage of this and you would have been a divorced woman by now and not still his wife."

  What Marianne was saying made sense, because Brian still doesn't know that he will be a father soon, and it was something that Sophie had never expected. But what made her wonder, even more, it was the reason why Eva still keeps silent and why that baby should be a secret, but later these wandering thoughts remained only thoughts when she had been overwhelmed by anger and desire to kill those who ended with her father's life.