Eva's Sins.

LXXVI

  „Yet, some of us have more sins than others"

  Staring at the wall of the carriage, covered with black velvet, Sophie suddenly felt her eyes wet because of tears, somehow playing in her head as if a kind of shaking took over them. But those tears were born in her soul not because she stared for long at a blind point without blinking even, but because deep inside her the pain was killing her. And... how not to cry his loss when she had been slapped that day for so many times?! Yes, she received painful palms over her face from her deadly enemy, slaps which had been actually controlled by life, which has been also who put high words in the rival's mouth, bad words invented by the whole world or people who wanted so bad to see Sophie Anderson Bell paying for everything she did in life, especially for her arrogance.

  And not only Sophie paid then, for what she did, but also the rest of the people who ever knew Edward Anderson Bell, who was her father, but who she seemed to have never known well. And... Eva was right when she asked her: „how well did you know your father, Sophie?" and the young woman's question made Sophie shudder from top to toe, even if in Christine's office, where Eva brought Sophie to talk to her, after the event with Mrs. Huntington and Beth, was warm enough, with a big fire in the stove, with flames that were actually playing with those dried logs which were smacking till turning them into ashes. Thus, hearing the crack of the wood in the stove, Sophie winced, feeling cold drops of sweat running on her back. But she understood that those cold drops had nothing to do with the cold felt outside but it was something coming out from inside her. And... it was there another truth understood so suddenly: while bathing her lost glance into Eva's beautiful blue sea seen in her eyes, a celestial blue on a sunny day, Sophie understood that she actually didn't have an answer to Eva's question as she understood that she actually never knew her father, at least not as he really was.

  De facto, she thought about this long before meeting Eva: if she got to know well her father or he has also been a caprice for her like Brian was?! She didn't know this and she probably won't ever know this, for right after she started to think about something like this, waves of hatred and negative emotions were taking over her soul and mind, not allowing her to clearly think or normally breathe.

  And... Sophie also felt a huge pressure in her throat, like a pliers that was hardly squeezing her soul as if trying to soak even the last drop of life from her. But even so, she felt that she hadn't enough power to stay against her own feelings and against the world represented by a single person at that moment: Eva, the one Sophie hated so much for occupying her place next to Brian, but who was also someone who Sophie wanted to still have in front of her after she found out that she was the only one who knew more about her father's death.

  Then... Sophie winced again, hearing Eva saying: „yet, it seems to me that you never got to know Edward Anderson Bell well, who has been your father, but also the enemy of so many people during his life, sowing hatred in their soul even after his death."

  „Each of us is someone's enemy in this life, Eva. The important thing here is to know how to fight against our enemies and of us sometimes, for sometimes we can be our own enemy."

  Eva sadly smiled, for... what Sophie said made sense. Yet, she didn't want to show her weaknesses in front of her rival. That's why she stretched her back and looked with pride at Sophie, who she started to commiserate with, so suddenly, for she understood that Sophie Anderson Bell lost a lot lately and so suddenly. „Maybe you're right, Sophie," Eva continued her thought, „but there are enemies that try to destroy you only by thought while there are others that do everything to take your breath away and push the dear people away from you."