Perri and Her- the seventh book to series 'Perri and a Me' about Perri Kiely.

Chapter 1 Part 5

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*1 month later*

Amber's PoV:

"Come in..." I sigh.

It's Kate. She's been a great help with Topaz. It's annoying that she's in here right now but what would I do without her? At least she didn't leave like Veronica who's still pissed that I didn't take her to the hospital.

"How's she doing?" Kate asks, walking in and looking around.

I'm so proud of the room we set up for her. It looks amazing. It's all pink with a big window pouring light in. I'm proud to say I painted the butterflies on the wall. I'm sitting beside her cot. She just woke up and I tried feeding her but then she cried.

"You're not hungry?" Kate asks me. 

I shake my head.

"You sure? I'll make food." She says, popping a gum in her mouth. "Suit yourself."

I smile at her.

"Did you change Reid?" I ask her.

"Yeah." Kate says. "Don't worry. He's all ready for his first dance lesson. Pel is picking him up at noon, right?"

I shiver before nodding.

"I've got to go shower.." I say.

Kate smiles an awkward smile as I kiss Topaz on the cheek before standing up.

"Don't you think its weird that you haven't let him see Topaz till today? I mean...he is her Dad." Katie says, combing her bright blonde hair with her fingers.

"Kate...please....just stop bringing Pel up.." I say, frustrated.

Kate purses her lips together before sitting on the chair I was sitting on and facing Topaz.

I sigh before realising it was rude to snap at her like that.

"I'm sorry.." I sigh, turning back towards her and giving her a side hug. "I appreciate everything you're doing. You know how complicated it is between us, right?"

She smiles quickly after sighing.

"I know..." She whispers. "You go get ready. I'll watch her."

"I love you, Kate." I say, before turning around and walking out of her room.

I walk towards my room, my pace quickening for some reason. Every time I walk in here, at the back of my mind, I'm wishing he'll just be sitting on the bed. On the phone with Mitch. Reading to Reid. Walking up to hug me. Mixing music on his mac. Singing in the shower. Anything.

I lied.

It's not complicated between us. it's actually quite simple. 

He's moved on. He's in a relationship and I'm not. He's in a relationship with Ni and he wanted to see Topaz. I didn't let him until today because i've been too angry with at him for walking out on me in the hospital or I've just been angry at him for being with Ni. That's the truth.

I lie back on my bed and stare at the ceiling. I just want him back SO badly. I guess it's too late to tell him now. I can hear Reid shouting along to the television outside. I sigh again, reaching for my phone at the side of my bed.