I watched myself in the mirror while putting lipstick on my lips. I chose the shade of red. Wala lang, gusto kong nakakaakit ako tingnan.
I placed the lipstick inside my bag when I’m done with my make up. I grab my keys that was laying on the table and went to my Lamborghini baby. I drove my car towards the new opened bar. Gonna enjoy my life until I can’t.
I checked myself again in the mirror before going out. It has been a habit of mine. Well, gonna make sure I stay pretty ‘till the end. My goal is to be a head turner and grab the attention of every guys out there. To be exact— smoking hot guys. I giggled at my thoughts before entering the bar.
It was wild. Hot. I could feel the flaming breaths of guys in my neck. The smell of liquor when the air passed by me. The neon lights going rampant every seconds. The bar was filled with shrieks, sounds of kisses, the deafening beat of the music and glasses being broken. I could smell different perfumes; some are sour, some are sweet and some are tangy. I can even smell someone’s fart; taste someone’s saliva that flew mid air from whom I don’t know. But I didn’t mind and just enjoy the freedom that I’m currently feeling right now. The ecstasy of being alive without minding what’s gonna happen next.
I found my way in the bathroom when I felt my head being dizzy. Ah, napasobra yata ang inom ko. I lay my head on the side of the door and kept muttering curses to myself. I’m gonna hate what’s to come tomorrow. Hangover has been my enemy in my entire life.
Bumalik ako sa bar counter nang makabawasan ‘yung Hilo na nararamdaman ko. Naupo ako dun at ihiniga ang ulo ko. Gusto ko na matulog, masakit na rin ang leeg ko. I was about to fall asleep when someone grabbed my hands and pushed me towards the wild crowd.
“Fuq!" I cursed. Malapit nako makatulog, nakakainis. Pinilit ko pang hinahanap ang balanse ko nang matulak ako ng mga taong parang zombie na sa kakasayaw at kakainom.
Gusto ko ng umuwi sabi ng isip ko pero I don't know why my body was dancing on her own. I enjoyed the music, went together with the beat and melody of the crowd. I was in a drunken state when someone wrapped their arms around me and danced with my rhythm. I grinded my butt in him when he suddenly whispered in my ears.
“Dang, you looks so sexy tonight.” He said in a seductive tone. His raspy voice giving tickles down to my spine.
Nagising ako sa sakit ng ulo ko. Arghh! Eto na ‘yung pinaka-ayaw ko sa lahat. Tumayo ako sa malambot na kama at nagpunta sa kusina. I watched my mouth and face in the sink. Ilang minuto muna akong nakatitig sa salamin bago ko na-realize kung nasan ako.
The design of the room is different. The walls are painted black and white and I could not see any single decorations but plants in a pot only. The smell of the room seemed— manly.
Biglang nanlaki ang mata ko at napamura sa sarili. Bumalik ako sa kwarto at nakitang may isang mala-anghel na lalaki na payapang natutulog. His body was covered with a blanket but I could see that he was topless. His muscles was more defined as he moved it a little. His eyelashes were black and long— napairap nalang ako sa sarili ko. No way I’m fantasizing a sleeping guy.
Kinuha ko na ang mga gamit ko at dali-daling umalis. Wala akong mukhang maihaharap sa lalaking ‘yun. Who knows what I did when I was drunk. Grabe pa naman ako ‘pag nalasing oh my gosh that is very embarrassing.
Nakahiga ako sa kama at nakatitig sa kisame. It’s been weeks since that day happened and I emerged myself in work. Nagwawarshock na ‘yung boss ko at wala akong nagawa kundi magfocus lang muna sa trabaho. Naaawa na rin ako sakanya baka maubos na buhok nun sa ulo.
Napabuntong-hininga ako. Well since it’s my day off, why not go to the bar again? And just a reminder, hindi na ako magpapakalasing. Nilaklak ba naman ‘yung alak na akala mo wala ng bukas.
Okay, I’m kidding. Nasa labas ako ng bar at pilit na tinitiis na huwag kong isuka ‘yung ininom ko pero kusa nang bumigay ‘yung sikmura ko. Ah, nakakainis. Hanggang kelan ba ‘to mauulit.
Inilagay ko ang bag ko sa damuhan at umupo sa gilid nito. Habang nakatitig ako sa kawalan, I heard someone snapped their finger at me.
“You were staring at nothing. I advice you to stare at my body though.” Ani ng baritono nitong boses.
Halos mapatalon ako sa gulat at hiya. I could feel my blood going up my head. He was the guy I slept with!
“Tinakasan mo’ko dati ah. Do you not like my service?” He asked while smirking. Namula ng sobra ang mukha ko at napaiwas ng tingin.
“I don’t know you.” Pagmamaang-maangan ko.
“I see we’re playing hard to get.” He clicked his tongue and extended his hand towards me. Nagtataka naman akong tumingin dito. He raised his eyebrow.
“I’m helping you stand up. A girl like you shouldn’t be sitting on the ground but on me.” Napairap nalang ako at tumayo mag-isa. Iniwan kong nakalutang sa ere ang kamay nito kaya’t napatawa siya ng mahina.
“Feisty, I see.”
I was about to leave when he suddenly grabbed my hand and pulled me inside the bar. Pilit akong kumawala sa hawak niya but I guess he’s just more stronger than me. He didn’t let go of my hand kahit nasasagi na kami ng mga tao. We stopped in the middle of the dance floor and that was the only time he let go of my hand— I thought. He placed his hands on my waist and whispered to my ear.
“Why don’t you dance for me again tonight?” He said in a husky tone while licked my ears.
Wala sa sariling sumayaw ang katawan ko when I heard some distant mutterings.
“She’s at it again.”
“Don’t mind her.”
“Mom, why does she keep on grinding her butt to that guy mannequin? She’s been doing it for days now.”
“Hayaan mo na. Baliw ata ‘yan.”
