Be yourself

Learning to let go

"Maybe if I close my eyes long enough you will disappear."
-RVG

"I've never considered myself a mean person. Yet here I am, feeling as though I hold a knife in my hand."
-RVG

"All I wanted was peace. But you were chaos."
-RVG

"I wanted you gone so bad. So why do I feel so sad now that you are."
-RVG

"I know my decision was right. And I know it was what I wanted. Yet I still feel like maybe I messed up. Maybe I wasn't thinking about your feelings enough."
-RVG

"I told you I wasn't ready for a relationship. I told you not to chase me. But you didn't listen. And now I have another broken heart on my Conscience."
-RVG

"Never thought I'd say it, but being single is better. I can do what I like whenever I like. Don't get me wrong I still long to find my person. But why didn't I see how fun it can be when you're alone."
-RVG

"I lay awake running memories through my mind like scenes in a movie. Only there's no end in sight."
-RVG

"I catch myself once in a while smiling when your name appears on my phone. And my heart skips a beat in excitement to hear what you have to say. But my mind tells me to let you go before I grow attached."
-RVG

"I will always be there for you no matter what. But I will never reach out for help no matter how many times you say the same."
-RVG

"I'm what you call predictably unpredictable."
-RVG

"Why do they always come? I can't catch a break anymore. Everywhere i go they approach me. Is it some kind of test? Maybe a bet? Whatever it is I don't want it."
-RVG

"Friend. That's what I call you. It's what you call me. So why does everyone have to say it can't stay that way."
-RVG

"She never truly understood the difference between being nice and being used. She just continued to give her all to everyone who asked."
-RVG

"It's a horrible feeling you know. Wanting something so bad that you know you can never have."
-RVG

"I don't think I could ever let you go. But I know it's only a matter of time before you let me go."
-RVG

"Emotional attachments are what I'm best at. Give me five minutes of your time and I'll be attached for life. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I'll cry when you cry. I don't know how to say no and I'll never say goodbye. I trust with all my heart and I'll die to save your life. I'm loyal to a fault and I'm left with no goodbye."
-RVG

"I'm not okay. Every day they smile and ask me how  I'm doing. But they're lying. They don't want to know how I'm feeling, they don't want to know how I'm struggling to live. They just ask out of common courtesy. So I never tell them. I just smile back and say I'm good with a chipper attitude. Why bother being honest when you can avoid burdening them with your stress. Let them live their lives in peace, because I'm okay."
-RVG

"I know I'm a screw up. Don't you think I tell myself that every day? That I look In the mirror and all I see is a stranger. That I walk down memory lane everyday and think of how I could have done better. That I cry myself to sleep every night wondering why I can't change. Because I do."
-RVG

"I'm not good at making decisions. In fact I always find a way out of it. My whole life my family and friends have been deciding my fate. And it's never bothered me before. But I'm not ready for the choice they'll make about you. And I'm not sure I'm strong enough to stand against them."
-RVG

" They say you have to mess up in order to learn. But all I'm learning is how miserable life is."
-RVG

"I'm the last one. They're all married now. Some are having kids. Some are getting dogs. And I'm alone. Am I mad they have someone. No. But sometimes I wonder if I'll ever catch up. I feel so far behind that I no longer enjoy our talks. All they talk about is how amazing their lives are. And I'm barely breathing. I can barely get out of bed in the morning. I see their posts and I thank God he blessed their lives. But as soon as I turn off my phone I think of how empty my life is."
-RVG

"I fear being selfish, and maybe that's why I see myself as selfish. I point out my flaws and hyper fixate on them until they become problematic."
-RVG

"I just want to be left alone. I'm sick of opening my heart for them to break. I want to keep my heart to myself. I'm scared I'll never get it back if it's broken again."
-RVG

"She tells me it's just the season. That I'll have better luck next year. She says I'll have my dream life in no time. But if I don't believe it will it still come true?"
-RVG

"I dreamt about him. That he touched the small of my back and i leaned into it. That he hugged me and I melted into it. That's when i realized how powerful my thoughts are. With one desire I created another world where our souls could touch."
-RVG

"Who could stay mad at you when you smile like that. One grin and my anger melts away."
-RVG

"I'm going to do better this year. I'm going to change everything I don't like about myself. I'm going to work hard and push myself forward even when I feel like fading away. I won't let the shadows engulf me this time."
-RVG

"One more chance, that's all I'm asking for. I know I can get it right this time. I've learned from my mistakes. I'll prove it to you."
-RVG

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