STELLAR
Break free
They say home can be a person but I must say a person can be as well a living prison
Kakagising ko lang at hindi ko namalayang lumuluha na pala ako
When will I ever get tired of crying?
I stared blankly at the ceiling and realized I needed fresh air, free from the intoxicating atmosphere
"Kailangan kong umuwi ng Baguio"
This is not only what I want but I think this is exactly what I need right now.
Because more than the fresh air, I need to find myself once again
If only there is a restart button in life
Pagkatapos ng dalawang oras na pakikipagtitigan sa kisame, I finally had the strength to pull myself out of the bed
Maybe at some point in our lives, we just have to stare at quiet ceilings that won't judge or tell you what to do; they will simply stay and quietly comfort you
Weird that I found comfort with ceiling
After taking a warm bath, I dressed with my most comforting clothes—my old cargo pants and long sleeves in shades of black and gray, with the subtle word FLORIDA printed at the center
And I also looked for my old classic ballers that I haven't worn in a long time.
And in an instant
I just felt Stellar, the real Stella Robert
Katigbak
I smiled at the woman right in front of the mirror with jam-packed emotions—happy, terrified, still lost yet partly found....it is a mix of everything
I closed my eyes and try to ride on top of the waves...waves of emotions
I tap my shoulder and say out loud—'You can do this'
"Stellar"
Creme suddenly walked inside my room
I can clearly recall our conversation despite my messy crying self last night
"Shh, tahan na, nandito lang ako.. Alam kong masakit ang naging desisyon mo dahil ilang taon kayong magkasama"
"pero Stellar...ilang taon ka na rin na nagtitiis"
"We both know how much you've been through just to stay in that relationship, and maybe this is the right time to let go and allow happiness to come to you, without any force or conditions."
The words that keep me sane last night
"Oh my gosh!"
And there she goes, the over reacting Cremeliana
"Nananaginip pa ba ako?!"
My sudden change of appearance flipped her out
"Hoy!"
I hissed dahil may pagkurot pa siya sa pisngi ko
"The simple yet very cool Stellar came back to life!"
She said giggling while arms wide open
"Ah I missed this outfit!!!"
she exclaimed but then paused while scanning my face
ano nanaman naisip nito?
"You know what? It just hit me that despite all the changes that have happened to you, especially on your outward appearance, which I initially disliked but had to accept anyway—I'm sooooo glad that you never altered your hair color!"
BINABASA MO ANG
Hey, Look Up!
Tiểu Thuyết Chung"They say, 'bloom wherever you are planted,' but what if I need to go somewhere else in order to bloom into the kind of flower I am meant to be all along?" she mumbles under the dark sky. This is not just a love story, but A Love Story.
