STELLAR
How come life is giving me mixed signals?!!
When I thought it finally says go, it's now flashing red color right on my face
"Sinampal ako ng realidad na hindi pala pwedeng puro passion lang, hindi pwedeng laging yung gusto lang natin sa buhay ang gagawin natin"
I'm with my co-workers Ms. Alice, Feena, Joe at ang kasalukuyang naglalabas ng sama ng loob na si Marcus
Our lunch out turned to voicing out work-life dilemmas
"Kung pwede lang talagang tumugtog na lang ako buong buhay ko gagawin ko..ang kaso mabubuhay ko ba pamilya ko sa pagtugtog lang?"
I am so quick to judge, thinking they are all fine and happy with their lives
You can't truly understand what's inside a person until you genuinely listen to them
"Aaminin ko hindi ako ganoon kasaya dito sa trabaho natin pero sa ngayon hindi na iyon ang basihan sa pagpili ng trabaho eh, tama ba ako?"
He halfheartedly laughed on his statement
"Same bro, I was aiming to enter the Karatedo Philippine Team last year pero dahil nagkaroon kami ng financial crisis sa bahay, kinailangan ko munang isantabi yung pangarap ko"
Pag-amin naman ni Joe
"Well..you are still lucky"
Everyone turned confused including me the moment Feena said those words
"Oh no no, this is not toxic positivity. I just can't help but compare myself to both of you"
I am all ears to her waiting to understand her point of view
"You know what you want in life."
"Ako kasi ni hindi ko masabi kung masaya ba ako o hindi sa trabaho ko"
She is the most frank and carefree in our group and I see it in a good way
But it is surprising to see this side of her
"I just go with the flow, and sometimes I wish I have some kind of passion....knowing what will really make me feel fulfilled and genuinely happy in life"
We are all stuck in the same environment, but the thing is we are stuck differently
"Time will unfold many things Feena at sa inyo rin, hindi ko masasabing galing na rin ako sa sitwasyon niyo dahil alam kong magkakaiba naman tayo"
Ms. Alice is the oldest and the mom of our group
"But what I can say is, if you desire something different from what you're doing right now, don't give up on trying, whether you decide to leave or stay at your current work."
"I am now 40 and it is only two years ago when I discovered my passion for designing gowns. And now, I am actively pursuing that dream. I am a Financial Analyst sa umaga at Fashion Designer student sa gabi"
She said cheerfully
And I am sure enough that we are all smiling with her
I don't know how she juggles mom's and wife's duties, work and acads but all I know is she is handling it gracefully
"It takes a lot of patience and courage...that's the reality of life"
And now they are all giving me the now-it-is-your-turn-to-speak-look
BINABASA MO ANG
Hey, Look Up!
General Fiction"They say, 'bloom wherever you are planted,' but what if I need to go somewhere else in order to bloom into the kind of flower I am meant to be all along?" she mumbles under the dark sky. This is not just a love story, but A Love Story.
