Met You In The Dark

Chapter 15

Kaizen's POV

Napakunot ang noo ko sa sinabi neto. Visited who?

"What?" pasigaw kong sabi sa kanya. She looked calm na parang wala lang sa kanya ang mga sinabi niya.

" I'm asking  if you have visited my bestfriend" sabi neto. Napunta yata lahat ng dugo ko sa ulo sa narinig ko sa kanya. Last time I remembered, she's been pushing me away from her. And now?

"You should leave before I kill you. Are you using your bestfriend to get a connection with me? I still remembered the last time you pushed me away. I'm okay now, how dare you bring all that up?!" I immediately stormed out of the cafeteria. And I heard footsteps behind me. Damn this woman. She's not calling me. I stopped and faced her.

" Miss, wala ka ba talagang sense of sensitivity sa katawan?!" Nandito kami ngayon sa tapat ng pinto ng office ko. Hindi ito sumagot. Maya maya pa ay kinuha neto ang kamay ko at hinatak ako papunta sa loob ng office. How dare this woman!

Nang makapasok kami sa loob ay agad kong hinablot ang kamay ko.

"I'm sorry. I don't want to suddenly bring this up but I remembered how important she is to you. The doctors said she's brain dead. Only the machine's keeping her alive. They want me to sign papers for them to remove the machines which means that  . . ..  she'll be gone forever "

Habang sinasabi ito ng babae ang may luhang namumuo sa mga mata neto. Hindi ko rin maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko. I'm too stunned to speak. I never imagined this coming. I really thought may pag-asa pa knowing ang technology ng America. Napaupo ako sa couch ng room at sumunod din ito. Magkatabi kami ngayon sa couch.

"I knew this day will come. The doctors already told me before I decided to move her to states. I had hopes na gagaling parin siya. But they said it was a hopeless case. I wasn't really here solely for business. I knew how important she was to you. I hate you,  but still, I thought you have the right to know" she continued. I can see the hurt in her eyes.

"Sana hindi mo nalang ako sinabihan" mabilis akong tumayo at iniwan ko siya sa office ko. Kumaripas ako ng takbo papunta sa kotse ko at mabilis akong nagpatakbo para makauwi. I badly need to get to my room.

Pagkarating ko sa kwarto ko ay umiyak ako ng malala. Grabe ang sakit ng nararamdaman ko. Memories of her came rushing to me. Yung last night with her . Our happy moments kahit madalang lang. Her smiles. Everything about her. I must deeply love her to the point na kahit gaano man niya ako nasaktan noon ay ganito parin ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. 

Umiyak lang ako ng umiyak hanggang sa makatulog ako.

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And this became a routine for a year now.

It's been a year since she left me. And the guilt inside me still resides. Feeling ko kasalanan ko pa rin kung bakit siya namatay. Ang kauna-unahang taong minahal ko ng sobra.

"Miss , can we dance?" sabi ng lalaki na amoy alak. Yeah, I'm here in a bar. Alone. And this became a coping mechanism for me. Halos araw-araw akong naglalasing and sometimes , I sleep with strangers just to forget. My life has been a mess since she left. And I don't know how long this will be. My company is still number one , thanks to Mark. But nothing seems to make me happy. I'm super rich . And I'm famous. But everything seems so dull.

"Kuya, isa pa nga." I told the bartender.

"Yes ,ma'am. " agad na tugon ng bartender. Nakailang shots na rin ako and medyo nahihilo na pero gusto ko pa. Minutes passed and everything went black.