1 false move - toh au

blight pt.1

I, Amity Blight, could not fucking let go of Luz. Not right now, not in a million years when we're dead and so are our bones. I want to be buried in the sands of time with her.

I sure as hell couldn't do that when we're both trapped in different realms, could I?

Vines had started to crawl up Luz's limbs, securing herself in front of the portal door, her hand wrapped around King's, holding him back from being swept back by the Collector's magic, as well as the circling winds that had started to form. She looked like a tragic painting, a Renaissance rendition of the worst heartbreak I've ever experienced.

A somewhat-rough tug at my dress's collar by Willow throws me back into the present and out of my mind. I glance back to the portal door, then back at Luz. We're standing on the platform that leads up to the door, but I abandon that position hastily, running down to where Luz has entangled herself in glyph-made vines.

"Amity, no--just go--!" There are twinges of desperation and pleading in her voice, there's a smile on her face and her eyebrows are creased in distress. "I'll be fine, Ami, I promise."

I don't believe her.

My ears are ringing and there's so much going on around me, and my world that was so light just a few days ago is now coming crashing down around me. I grab her hand, pulling it closer to me, muttering under my breath, "No, no, you can't--". It doesn't change her mind. She's the bridge. The middleperson in something that can not be solved. Her brother, or her mother? How could she possibly decide that, when both were so dear to her? She looks into my eyes again, sparks of light shimmering in them like a thousand constellations. I know she doesn't want this.

That doesn't make it any less hard.

So, I give in. She sends me a soft smile, and I send one back to her. And I turn back. I run. The portal door is fading out. Willow pulls me through at the last second, flames nearly erupting around me.

And--Oh. Oh, I left her. Oh, it's all my fault. I should've tried harder, should've held on. Oh, I failed her, oh, she's going to be so disappointed in me, so mad at me. She's going to hate me, if we ever see each other again--Titan, what if we never see each other again? I can't just let her go--no, why would I ever do that? But I just did, and she's gone forever and even if she isn't, she hates me, she hates me so much. She doesn't want to speak to me ever again, I can tell, because I left her behind. Oh, why did I leave her behind? How could I do that? I'm a monster, fuck, I'm so bad at this. I don't deserve her, she deserves someone so much better than me. Someone who wouldn't leave her behind.

There's a hand on my shoulder. Willow's. She's sitting down beside me. She looks worried. I didn't realize the tears that had started to stream down my face.

"Ams?" Willow asked in a hushed, calming voice. I shut my eyes. Tried to take deep breaths. It doesn't work very well. My vision is starting to blur from the tears and the rain. Oh my Titan, I let her down. Why did I do that? How could I do that? Titan, I'm such a failure. She's going to-- Willow cuts off my thought process. Her eyebrows are creased and she's looking at me in concern.

I must look like a mess. Shit.

Willow smiles at me softly, before getting up and heading into the abandoned house behind us (I had been sitting on it's steps for the past... however long we've been here). Gus and Hunter must be hiding from the-rain?-inside. I'm not sure if it's rain, actually. It isn't boiling. But Luz said it didn't boil in the human realm-shit, Luz. Human realm. We can't be in the human realm, can we? No, I must be imagining things!

We're back home. It's just a normal day. Nothing is wrong.

...But the trees are green, and so is the grass.